Friday, December 29, 2006
Went to watch Borat: Cultural Learnings of America for Make Benefit Glorious Nation of Kazakhstan yesterday. The queue at GV in vivocity was so long that I was in disbelief. I had complained to Vivy about my process of getting the ticket using the AXS machine, so I will complain no more. Using the machine took me half an hour. If I had queued normally, I would have most probably missed the movie. Anyway, Borat wasn't as amazing as I think it would be. I found it to be degrading for the people of Kazakhstan. I think they were portrayed really wrongly.I don't really like Borat himself, I think he's too vulgar and have too much sex on his mind. Some of the scenes implying sex was way too much detail for me. It was interesting though to see how American reacted to him. First stop was when he first arrived in New York and took the subway. He started greeting everyone with a kiss and all these people started cursing. If they only said F you, I would get it, but these people were very creative in their hostility. You should hear the sentences they uttered. I reckon only people who say it a lot can say such thing. I mean if only at that point in time, you are stunned and agitated with a person, how can you be creative in cursing? I think being stunned alone would have freeze your brain momentarily. The scenes with the college boys made the news which I think made me hear of this movie in the first place. I do think that the boys are just frat boys without much brain. They may not be the kindest people you meet and I do think that they don't really respect girls much, and you say all kind of things when you are drunk, but when they consoled Borat when he was brokenhearted, I think it was kinda amicable. The church scene was another scene that I think was hilarious. I don't know if any strong Christian out there would like me saying it as hilarious. The church didn't sue Borat, I think they think they were portrayed as caring, loving, and full of the holy spirit. Why is it hilarious for me? I'm sorry, the whole jumping around, running, and speaking in tongue, you know the way they have it in some churches, I think it's just too weird, and it's precisely the reason why I avoid myself from these churches. I am positively sure that I am not the only one who feel this way, because many people in the cinema laughed with it. I think it become not a very welcoming experience for new people being in this church, because if you see it for the first time, it's simply just too weird and unless there's some divine intervention (as in God has really meant for you to be there), you will feel uncomfortable.
Okay, I'm not gonna write more, not sure with the current Internet connection if this post get posted. Overall, Borat wasn't as nice and interesting as I think it would be. Do think it's a bit waste of money, go watch other things peeps. Today there's some sun and yet I don't know what to do. My holiday has been the most boring one. In Indonesia I don't mind staying at home doing nothing, in Singapore it's just different. I don't know why. Did manage to do some errands. Ah, perhaps I need to clean a bit of my room.
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Saturday, December 23, 2006
Only an Indonesian who lives in big cities will know what the title means24 and it was my first time doing it. I seriously don't see the necessity of trying it, hence I was really not enthusiastic about going, really close to not going. All the while thinking it's just not the right thing (spiritually, don't laugh peeps!) to do and mom wouldn't like it, and it's on Mother's day (for Indonesian), I did exactly what would make my mom worried. Gonna call her tomorrow and tell her what it's like. So what changed my mind? Beside the constant telling from people to go? Because it's the girl's farewell also. Now that I think about it, without me, that girl would end up with La Gioa alone, and they would have all the guys
So I was asked, of course, how was it? I would answer interesting. I think using 'interesting' is kinda a politically correct way to answer the question. If I don't like it, then it's a polite way of answering. If I do really like it, then it kinda disguises the fact that I really like it. So do I like it or not? Well, I don't think Eka belongs there. I mean being there, I can just see why the place is just so wrong and being in a place where wrong doing happen, though I didn't do anything wrong, well...just feel a bit wrong for me. If you think that I am being saintly or too freaking serious here, well, one is entitled of one's opinion and view on certain thing, right? However given the same nice people that I went with, I don't mind going again, though I hope the next time it does happen it would be in weeks and weeks and weeks to come. Oh, I should add that Carl, P, and the Brasiliano would be somewhat disappointed with the liquid I took. They would say "devi bere di più"
Okay, enough about that. I wanna write about life in general, and will do so in points so that I don't forget. This gonna be long.
1. There was these words Ms. J wrote in her Christmas card for me, Personal thoughtfulness. I just find it pretty profound. People like her are so nice to me. Recently I also felt so much thoughtfulness from Dagi who outdid herself by sending me my Christmas presents in a box, which size was double of last year. 8 types of German biscuits and chocolates, a moose in a mug, and an agenda. I have to admit she is too nice to me, and it is truly mind-boggling to me, why people can be so nice to me and really care. So it started this whole thought in my head that I need to do the same to other people, like spreading through their kindness to other people. One particular thing that I was thinking of doing was discussed with the Mr. It was a waste of letters typed, because it wasn't meant to be. I think he thinks it's real waste of his breath
2. There was this matter that Ms. J and I have been talking for quite some time. I woke up with 2 sms from her this morning. The 2nd one was written when she was on her way to the airport. She was actually thinking about it though she was on her way for holiday. As if that's not enough, she sent me a mail from the airport telling me that if something urgent happens, she can still be reachable in her phone. I think I will try my darnest not to do that because she needs to detoxify herself also, and this matter may remind her of her situation. Me myself is also on holiday, so I can detoxify myself. Obviously the detoxification in Indonesia didn't really work, because I am back in Singapore where the things are happening. I don't know, I think I am getting used to it, that I think it's no biggie. Though I think the Mr may also be speechless and bang his head if he hears what happened. I think he thinks all this unnecessary complicated things in my life are a waste of time, but again that's what makes him look forward to talk to me I suppose
3. Bought 4 books for me for my Christmas presents
4. Obviously, I am getting broke but that didn't stop me from watching Charlotte's Web today. Didn't plan to but was waiting for my cousin to come to Orchard for dinner, so I ended up watching the movie. So many famous people provided the voices. A very nice film, though I can not say it is remarkably captivating. It just felt it was quite okay. Dakota Fanning is destined to be great, but her performance in this one was just normal. Her character did not have much room to expand anyway. Oprah didn't really sound like Oprah. Julia Roberts sounded so Julia, it took me a while to relate her to the spider. I do must say that she provided some kind of wisdom and commanding respect for Charlotte. I think the moral of the story can be summed up in the last word Charlotte made, humble. It's pretty much in the last conversation between Wilbur the pig and Charlotte.
5. So I went to watch the movie alone. Was planning to do it, but didn't plan to do it on a weekend. I normally avoid watching a movie alone on weekends, because it's more crowded and I don't like the idea of people may be looking at me. So even if I have to, I wouldn't choose popular places. But today I did, and I felt okay and fine, enjoying it very much. Mom is worried with my anti social character. She said that people can not live on their own without some reliance on friends. She is right people, because I did learn back in school that human are social people. They need other people to survive. But so far, I think I'm doing fine. I can do many things on my own and it's okay. It may look and feel miserable at times, but the way I see it, currently it is the way it has to be. Friend may not always be there for you the second you need them and obviously I don't have that one person who would always be there for me. I don't know if I will have one, but as we are finding out, I am still okay with me
6. Finally met my cousin. Had dinner and talk. Arrghh, I have blisters
Can't really think of anything else. I'm just tired *sigH* I still have to write again, in other places
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Sunday, December 17, 2006
Kate Winslet is fun to watch, because I usually see her in a more serious role. It's interesting to watch her in a more silly way. Jack Black is of course Jack Black. I thought his role in this movie would be more serious, nice guy kind of way. He was the nice guy, more serious but he still managed to put his antics, musical antics in some of the scene. Cameron Diaz is comical in a way that Cameron Diaz does it. I read in someone's blog once that Cameron can almost always be seen dancing or moving to the music in her movies. She did does it in this movie. I think Jack Black can also almost be seen singing in all his movies and that he also did in this movie. Kate Winslet and Jack Black's story had more depth in it. Kate and Jack not only fell in love with each other by the end of the movie, but they also helped an old guy found his confidence. They also managed to liberate themselves from the love that hurt them. Their ending was very sweet. One of the sweetest scene about them, I think was when Miles (Jack Black) played the melody he composed for Iris (Kate Winslet). I wonder if there's a melody for me, how would I sound.
I haven't written about the mighty fine Jude Law. Hairy though he was, but aaaaahhhh.....He's so handsome!!! Of the 2 movies watched with him in it, AI and Road to Perdition, I don't think he's amazingly handsome but he is! Gosh, love him. His character was made to be so cute, a widower with 2 cute daughters. I guess it's a nice twist, because when we first met Jude's character, he was being portrayed as an ass. Who knows that fine ass was actually a very devoting father. He and Cameron Diaz love story was pretty straight forward. A pretty girl met a handsome boy, they fell in love, and they conquered all the complicated things between them (the long distance, the girls, etc) and they ended up together. All the characters had at one point in the movie showed this look of love in their face, I think except for Cameron. She didn't really capture it. What do I mean with that look of love, that's the look you have in your face seeing the person you love. Kate did a very good look at the start of the movie. I think she was the best one of all in this movie. With that look on her face, one can really relate with her broken heart. Should you watch it? Yep, if you are a girl and you want to see the really really really REALLY handsome Jude Law
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Monday, December 11, 2006
I realize I don't like unhappy ending...
Put that in my MSN nickname today and Zabimaroo asked me if I was so down. I said hasn't my nickname these days shown depression. He said yes, but today it seemed he thought I've reached my boiling point and decided to ask me and catch up on a few things. The nickname actually has nothing to do with all the stupid things in my life. It is because of a movie I watched last night. It's so good that I need to tell all of you.Watched Léon (The Professional) in Arts Central last night. It was directed by Luc Besson and God! The movie is awesome, so awesome. Unfortunately I missed a few minutes because I needed to brush my teeth, stupid me. I love the story so much but I hate the ending. Go to IMDB.com for summary and all. The main guy, played by Jean Reno died. Aaahh...so sad!!! Jean Reno played this awesome hit man and after managing to get out of a building filled with SWAT team, he got shot as he was reaching the door. Bloody bad guy (Gary Oldman)! Though Jean blew himself with the bad guy, I don't think it justified his death. The ending was a real bummer for me
Zabimaroo and La Gioa know of this movie. Why on earth that I only found out about it now. Maybe because it's made in 1994? When me and Natalie Portman were still so young
As mentioned above, as usual stupid things are happening. I think my brain has been working way too much, felt my head swaying a couple of time just now. Was given a sad news today. I'm honored that I was trusted enough to be the first to know, however I should see it as good news for that person. Should be happy that one get her / his freedom *sigH*
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
Feeling hungry as I am writing this. Went to watch Happy Feet with Vivy today. Yep, I know a lot of you have watched it. I really really like it. Was entertained more than what I expected I would be. I think the penguins were really cute, especially when they were babies. Ah, Mumble's blue eyesI kinda liked the story. When Mumble ended up in the zoo, I kinda couldn't believe it, and so I was whispering to Vivy, "Hah? It's not a happy ending?". For the brain in me cannot figure out how Mumble could ever get back to his place and be with Gloria. Well, of course it's pretty much happen only in movies, Mumble did manage to get back to his place and towards the end, the movie brought an important message about excessive fishing and conserving the environment. I kinda like the swing to this direction. I found it educative and worth while. So of course, it's a happy ending. Gloria was never mated when Mumble was away, and of course she ended up with Mumble. All the penguins learnt how to tap, and it's all music and dance for them. I guess I found the ending was even sweeter after all the journey, challenges, and hard work that Mumble had to go through, from accepting himself, getting acceptance and acknowledgement from other penguins who thought he was cool, surviving, to getting acceptance from his kind. It was actually truly a long and hard process for the strange penguin
Rushed to do some christmas shopping today, because I don't have much time left. I hope they all like what I got them, and what I hope the most is I don't get them what they are getting me. Had a difficult time getting the presents. Wanted to give books, but I don't know if those people have already read what I planned to give them. I love books by the way. It's so easy to get me stuff, get me a book. Saw Paulo Coelho's latest book, Like the Flowing River. Ah! Wanted to buy this as a present to one of those people, but I decided not to, because I want it for myself. If I buy it, I will not have the heart to give it away. Can someone get me this, please...please...PLEASE!!! Read 1 page of it, and it's very very sweet. Shall I tell you? I guess I should, though it's gonna make my post longer. Well, Coelho was on the plane to somewhere, and there was this man who asked for volunteers to each carry a rose when they landed. The volunteers were chosen, and when they landed the man secretly showed these people to his girlfriend. One by one the volunteers gave the rose to the woman, until the last rose was given by the man who asked her to marry him. Ah!!! I know it may sound simple and cheesy, but it's just so sweet!!! I don't think I would like getting a proposal that involve many people, but I just can't imagine not saying yes if such thing should happen to me
Of course, the unlucky me have to face some unluckiness. This week was started with being sick and having so much things to do that I just want to run away. Today, I had an almost fatal fall in a staircase. Of course, I can still be thankful for the fact that I didn't roll down until the bottom of the stairs, but something wrong is happening on my left leg. I hope it's nothing major and I can still walk, but we must see what happen tomorrow. A realization came to me this week that something that I have been missing these past weeks is going to start again soon. I missed it when it was gone but now I feel a bit not ready and unworthy to take part in it again. Changes will happen, which I hope will not happen but we must wait and see what's gonna happen. I suppose I better start studying. Take care peeps!
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Monday, December 04, 2006
It's so funny to say Here I am, returning. Returning as in being in Singapore, but there I found myself unconsciously saying things like "Saya pulang dulu yah" (I'm going home). Hated myself when I heard myself saying it, especially when I said it to my dad in the airport. He didn't say anything, maybe he didn't feel any significance in it. However, I just feel I'm betraying myself (?). Have I unconsciously make this place my home? I don't know, I can't really imagine how. I guess I've just been here for far too long. So anyway, yes, I am back, people. Reached my room at 11:30 pm ++ last night. My room was cleaned completely and so I needed to spend some time to put my bed sheet back and in the end I think I slept at around 1? I couldn't really sleep. Didn't have a good night sleep, perhaps I was too nervous and every single part of me was rejecting the idea of being back here and doing the things that I have to do.So what changed about me? Well, I am sick *sigH* Flu, but not bird flu (hopefully). Got injected in the butt for this. The doctor offered me the injection and I gladly obliged because I just wanted to feel it. Yep, crazy me
People have been asking me, how's my trip home. To which, my reply was "not long enough". I will now try to explain it in short sentences. Let's start with my cousin's wedding. Glitches were many, but in the end, they were wed, so I suppose as my mom's said, it's all done, we can relax now. Mom bought me the dress, I was quite surprised finding out the price upon paying. I thought I looked fat when I tried it on, but in the end I think it did look nice on me. Had a curly hair for the wedding
Had dinner and lots of talk and laughter with the girls, Marlisa, Dewi, and Emilia. We were loud, but I didn't care, because I don't really show my face in that place often. I suppose they should care
Okay about home. Mosquitoes. Lots of them. So many red marks (turning dark brown now, arrgh) on my legs
On the plane yesterday I realized, there were days I spent not getting out of the house. The closest to the outside world I experienced was when I opened the gate for my dad, but I didn't feel bad about it. I could do practically nothing at my home and I feel okay and happy and at peace. If I spent a day in my room here, I feel like my life is a waste. It is weird. I hate that feeling, hence why I guess, I just want to be at home (where I can be lazy without feeling quilty?)
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Started today with Chantal Kreviazuk's, Leaving on a Jet Plane. All my bags are not exactly packed, but getting there. Ah, it's raining, I wish for a sunshine day. I'm going home today peeps. If it's up to me, I would rather go home in December, I may get the chance to spend 3 weeks home then. However, my cousin is getting married this weekend and so I should be there. It's gonna be an interesting wedding, simply because of what've been happening in our family this past year. It may set the tones for weddings to come.Anyway, enough 'bout that. So I will be away for 1 week plus. Already, I can imagine being depressed when I come back here. I hope no major changes occur while I am away. Talked to the Mr this morning, I updated him with the happenings in my life these few days. His comment was of course interesting. Whatever it is, I am leaving. It is time for me to detoxify all the stupid and silly things in my life. Hopefully when I come back, I am no longer sad about a particular stupid thing. The Mr has good news of his own. To it, I can only exclaim excitedly FINALLY! He said currently it's only 1 cm, how funny. All starts small I suppose.
Okay gotta go, paid my bills and wrote this small post. Maybe I can get online later with the wireless connection in Changi airport. Arrivederci tutti! Ci vediamo! Grazie Derrick
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
Went to watch Step Up with Vivy today. Been a while since I last seen her and since I'm leaving, we should at least meet and catch up. I didn't expect much in going to watch Step Up. I was somewhat interested in it because of the dance theme but I do wonder if it was good, compared to Take the Lead for example. From the trailer, the leads weren't that exceptionally beautiful and handsome either. However, my oh my, the male lead played by Channing Tatum just attracted meSo today, the movie was in Vivo city. I went out with my glasses. FYI, I do not go out in public with my glasses (well actually I did, back when I wasn't introduced to contact lens) but today I decided to do so. I suppose, I just wanna try what my life would be like. I mean without perfect eyesight, glasses are parts of my life, so I thought I should just experience going out with them. Another reason was because I somewhat wanted to hide? I guess a lot of people know me without glasses, so perhaps if I should meet anyone today, they might not recognize me with my glasses. I didn't meet anyone I know today, well I don't know if anyone I know saw me, but this glasses story is not interesting, isn't it? Okay, how about a story about lunch? Lunch was at Earl's Swensen where we got a nice place to sit with a good view of Sentosa, but I think that's the only best part of lunch. The waiter was nice, but then he explained to us the restaurant funny policy on their salad bar. I was ordering roast chicken which got me free salad while Vivy's chicken franks didn't come with the salad. First the waiter asked if Vivy wanted to change order because she wouldn't get the salad (we thought we heard him wrongly when he asked that) and then he told us that there's no sharing of salad allowed, which means me who do not eat vegetables can not give my salad to Vivy. I said "How weird". In which he went on with stories about how a family only ordered 1 thing that came with the salad and kept on refilling the salad bowl for the whole family until his manager called a meeting to instruct all the waiters to tell their patrons about the no sharing of salad allowed. Raise your hand if you think this is freaking stupid. Hello?!? If your salad bar is so exquisite that it can cost you loses, then stop the refill policy instead of telling us that there's no sharing of salad allowed. Can you imagine eating something and being told that you can not share it. Imagine, imagine, it's so stupid and silly. The food itself wasn't that nice. My roast chicken happened to be tough and was still a bit bloody at the joint *sigH* I think the normal Swensens have better food. I don't know how their other foods are. The spaghetti looked interesting, but I don't know if it's really good. Dinner wasn't satisfying either. Today I didn't really eat well *sigH*
Yesterday, I had a surprising news for me. Very surprising, considering it was very unexpected. I didn't know how I felt when the news was delivered and I still don't know how I feel. The interesting part is perhaps me not making plan to move on and yet a plan was made for me. I am not sure if I can do it, but if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it? It does get me thinking of a few things. However, I think I should not think so much, because things can always change and a lot of changes are happening. On other part of my life which the Mr is perhaps very skeptical in, I just want to say "Okay, it's done. I'm gonna let go now or at least try to let go" and it seems like the timing is conducive to do so.
Every second chance begins with a first step.
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
Went for dinner and movie with the Pradas yesterday to celebrate something. Was it much of a celebration? Dinner was at Secret Recipe, I'm seriously not so keen on this place, however it was a convenient choice at that time. I don't think we had a satisfying dinner. Had a good laugh with the card, how it was so random. It's pretty funny how something that we get for someone to make her happy can make us giggle in the process. Well Done, MissyAfter dinner we went to watch A Good Year, starring Russell Crowe. It's about this cutthroat business man who got a chateau with a vineyard in France from his dead uncle. The story was pretty typical, there's a girl, a family, and all and how this man turned into a better person by the end of the story. Not a bad movie, interesting lines, good casts, good story telling. I was not so keen on Russell Crowe, because he is not exceptionally handsome but I must say that he is a good actor. Freddie Highmore played the younger Russell Crowe. When I first saw him, I thought this boy looked familiar and turned out it's Freddie (Finding Neverland, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory). Oh dear, how he has grown tall. Tall and scrawny boy. I just love this boy. His best scene in this movie is perhaps the tennis match with his uncle. You know that it's almost a month since I last watched a movie (the last one was The Departed on October 14), somehow I feel it's way too long for me.
Not having a good week this week. In addition to my computer almost on fire, I lost a few things (which cost me money!) *sigH* Was told that I was short tempered. I am not denying it, but I just feel sorry that it is. I should have controlled myself better. I should be more patience and I should love more. Aah...really not having a good year, but I can not blame it on the cosmic power that be for all my unluckiness and all the bad decision and move that I make. It's still me who react and make the move. Just finished sending a mail to the Mr telling the truth, the whole truth, which noone knows. Vivy will know too, I guess, but not yet. Don't really have the time to meet her just yet. Ah ... I should say less. Seriously Eka, trust noone, or at least trust noone that is near? Maybe why I can trust the Mr so much.
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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Hello my dear, how are you? I hope you are having a good day. How strange, such words should be said to a person straight away instead of being written here with the possibility of not getting read (read paragraph 2 to know why I think that way). Decided to write because of an unfortunate event that I experienced today. Feeling really sad about it and feel like hitting the wall, though it's not my fault and totally out of my control. However, I just feel "DAMN IT!!! WHY AM I SO FREAKING UNLUCKY!!!"The title is inspired by Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. Please note that my Wednesday doesn't have an 's'. Well I suppose, I don't have that nice person to spend my Wednesday with. When I do have, I hope that person will write our story. Anyway, I love Tuesdays with Morrie more than The 5 People You Meet in Heaven. Tuesdays with Morrie is quite inspiring for me. I must admit though that it is still hard for me to forsake my pride and just be nice to people and ask forgiveness and all. I understand it's very silly and sad of me to say that, however some things are just ... well, I have too much pride. There were some lines from the book that I really like. The lazy me only wrote 1 line into my book and that is: Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. The line is so profound to me because it's what I was (still am actually) feeling. I miss the Mr. I know he's gonna tell me that I'm dumb, but perhaps that what I need, a reminder to get me out of the sad feeling I shouldn't be feeling *sigH*
Gonna go now and pretend to contemplate on my life. Meanwhile, here are some pictures that I took from my newly fixed camera. It's about, let's call it Woof. This dog was given by my dear, Dagi, on my birthday (this year, I think). It was put inside a mug and of course the unlucky me broke that mug, which I haven't even used, on Sunday. Anyway, I just realize how cute this dog is. He's small and I just try to act as the photographer and take a black and white (photoshop enhanced) picture of my dear dog. Any idea for the name, Woof?
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