Wednesday, May 13, 2026

Not Enough Slacking Time

I'm about the write about the things that I watched recently and yet the title is about me not having time to slack which kinda contradicts things I suppose, but I was finding myself behind even more things that I usually watch and I have a personal checklist of things I need to and some of it were not done and even worse, I may have forgotten to put things in the list. Will I be alright? The Lord is my shepherd, but the Lord may need me to do right as well. Before Chinese New Year when the nearby mall was decorated with Chinese New Year stuff and they put out forecast for each of the animal zodiac, the writing for the dogs was that it's looking good, but I was thinking what's been happening these past few months have been something that's not really that good. I'm not lacking in things that worry me, make me sad, make me angry and it's really been one thing after another. Though I could also see that there are things to be thankful for. Like last week, something happened (that made the news) and I was in shock and to be honest freaking out, but I'm so thankful that there are others who were there by my side and to have them to go through it together instead of alone in it, well there's gratitude aplenty. But then, of course there's the part of me which was like, why this calamity needs to happen in the first place?!?! I'm tired of calamity and of course it will always be a crisis for me because of how my mind reacts to things not going as they should. So that's one thing recently and since I'm not lacking in anxiety, I'm already looking at June when if I'm not lucky, I will have to make another big change :( Even then though, there's already an option presenting itself, so I might be fine, but I'm just tired you know. It's not even solely the mental; physically I have concerns and I know this is most likely my fault - I should eat more and try to sleep earlier (but even then I may not be able to fall asleep). Like this morning I suddenly had vertigo and AI said it could be pre-syncope too and this happened while I was already out and about in public - it's so so scary that I may just collapse and faint in public which had happened before (ask my mom) :'( Praise be to God that my head cleared up and I made it the whole day. Truly, the reason I am still standing is the good Lord.

Anyways, let's get to the TV things first. I finished season 2 of The Pitt - I really like them a lot. There was a birth in season 2 and I thought the effect in that scene was so cool and I wondered how they did that. I also got reminded that there's a birth in season 1 and watching that then was rather ... scary. That's The Pitt for you - please do not end up in chaotic busy ER. I followed The Pitt with Lord of the Flies which is like a heavy thing followed by another heavy thing. I remembered reading the book and the subject matter is not comfortable so it isn't necessarily an enjoyable or easy read. This TV series was not comfortable too, with the scenes, with the music, and of course with the boys going with their worst instinct in trying to survive in an island on their own. In the book, I was sad when Piggy died but in this TV series, I was more sad when Simon died. It's because the TV series gave some backstory to these kids so I felt more for Simon. The kid who played Jack the so-called villain (but he had issues that made him the way he was) would be playing Draco Malfoy in HBO's upcoming Harry Potter television series and I so look forward to that. After Lord of the Flies, I followed it with The Night Manager which I'm currently watching. I remember liking season 1, but when I watched episode 1 of this season 2, I was thinking maybe these days I prefer lighter things in my spy action drama as influenced by Slow Horses. Anyways, that's the TV part.

For the movies, recently I watched an Italian film, Primavera. The reason I'm writing about it now because I learned new things. The movie is a fiction but there's Vivaldi in it and I found out that he was a priest. I was shocked that I had to pause and googled it a bit. I really didn't know that about him. Something that somehow I also didn't know was that Vivaldi also wrote sonnets for his Four Seasons. So that's very very interesting. The next day, I watched the Indonesian movie Pangku, the english translation of the title is On Your Lap. It's the directorial debut of Reza Rahadian, a well-regarded Indonesian actor. Coming of Primavera, Pangku was another story about women in unfortunate situations. It was a bit hard for me watching it because it depicted poverty. I have watched movies about poor people, but I wondered if it hit me harder because it's Indonesian, like I know there's really people like that. This movie was slow moving that I wondered how non-Indonesians take it, though I remember thinking there's some really really good acting in it. I didn't know how the story was going to unfold and when it unfolded the way it was ... I was like sigh. You can't even be mad at the wife of the man who kept the mistress because damn it's not the wife's fault having to work overseas. This is like the stories of many maids who work out of Indonesia. Maybe it's not the takeaway, but at the end I was quite sad of how difficult it is for people in poverty to lift their progeny out of poverty, like how many generations it would take if it's possible. This is also like a slap in the face, a reminder of how lucky I am. Luck really plays a lot of factor in life. Other mention - I also watched the french movie Bernadette, a fictionalized account of Bernadette Chirac, the wife of the French president Jacques Chirac. Catherine Deneuve was great. The movie was funny. I don't know how much of it are true, like their views of Nicolas Sarkozy. It's very gossipy, the movie :D

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