Thursday, March 28, 2024
I was watching an Italian movie some time ago and one of the character said something that hit me. It was attributed to the Dalai Lama and it goes something like this, there are 2 days in the year where nothing can be done - yesterday and tomorrow. I'm sure we all have heard different versions of this, so we know it, but it still jolted me when I heard it. It's pretty much about living in the present; making the most of the present without worrying about the future and wasting time regretting the past. We know it but in practice, well it's a whole different story, especially with me and my never ending anxiety. The movie was about a man who uncontrollably went on a time jump to the future and as he went further and further, his life was getting messier and unhappy. I don't know what it says about me that sometimes when I watch a movie or TV, my mind would go thinking that's an interesting premise, but I would develop the story in a different direction. Like in the case of that man, sure the first few times you may freak out and wonder what the hell is happening, but if it's something that you can't control, if you don't know how long you have in this present time then why not spend it having fun. The man didn't and he's pretty much miserable with each jump. That is the lesson perhaps - to be happy now, but then my head went thinking why it is hard to apply in real life. It's because in real life we don't know how much present we have. It's different if you know you have like a week left. Without knowing how long you have, it's like people have to play the long game. It cannot be just the present only, but the future too; be like the squirrels saving for winter. I don't know man - March being my birthday month, I get more reflective about days of being younger, with some regret that I should have been lighter in my 30s. I guess when I get to 50, I look at the 40s and be the same too. You know, I think I have written that exact same thing some time ago in this blog :(
Anyways, as for other movies - I did watch The Zone of Interest, winner of the Best International Feature in this year's Oscar. I don't really like it. In that same category, I watched Io Capitano and I like that way way much more even though as I was watching it, I was like guys noooo! It tells the story of 2 Senegalese teens who decided to be one those migrants and go to Europe. I have read all the horrifying news articles about this issue so I knew this was not a good idea. I wouldn't say the teens in the movie were in a really dire situation that would necessitate their leaving, so a part of me was thinking were these migrant horror stories not reach them and stop them from going. The whole machinery that facilitate these migrants journey are really just horrible. Human lives are nothing for the people who profit from this :( Anyways, as for TV, I quite enjoy The Walking Dead: The Ones Who Live. So nice to see Rick and Michonne back, but I also want to see other people in that universe pop in. Then Abbott Elementary is in season and they're such a comfort :)
What else to write about? Nothing much. Today is actually my Chinese birthday and kinda nice to have the day for myself. I was thinking good things for today but yesterday something happened that got me feeling like, everytime, everytime I thought I could be positive and I think there's a light, I'm being shoved back into the black hole that leave me feeling inadequate, not enough, and I don't know how I'm gonna get through this. I ended yesterday feeling quite down even though I have an extra long weekend waiting for me *sigh* Alright, gonna stop now. Gonna eat a boiled egg and then go pray and get some sweet treats. What's with the boiled egg? It's just my family thing which I think originated back in my parents' childhood where they were not rich so could only have egg on their birthdays. Anyways, one time my dad had my brother text me to tell me it's my Chinese birthday and I should get a boiled egg. It happened just one time, so random. Then yesterday my mom called to tell me it's my Chinese birthday today. The thing about me is, my Chinese birthday falls on the same day as the Goddess of Mercy or Kuan Yin's birthday, so I can always google this. Okay guys, hope your Easter weekend is wonderful.
:) eKa @ 11:40:00 AM • 0 comments
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