Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sunday Recap - 25/11/11
This week hasn't been good. On Monday for some reason I lost the contact lens of my left eye. I don't know how it happened. I was just sitting on my table. Then it was gone. Alright, perhaps I did kinda rub my eye but I wasn't sure when exactly it was gone. I tried looking at it all around where I sat but I couldn't find it. I wondered if it's possible that it got lost in my eye. Googled it and the answer to that question was not really. It wouldn't go to the back of your eye but it may get stuck in your eyelid or something. So me being half blind, made my way the optician. She helped me look for it and confirmed it's not there and now I am waiting for a new one. She's giving me a temporary replacement for the time being. It's a double bad news because my contact lens were actually new. I had it made less than a month ago I think. Even the optician was feeling rather bad about it. I'm not loving the unexpected expense that I have to fork out :( but shit happens.
More shits happen this week but I guess it's a matter of perception. Some people may take it with unbeatable energy and so on but this week I am not taking it well. I am trying to be emotionless but I believe some people find being emotionless is equal to being negative. I think this kinda people should just shut it. I stand by my opinion that I may not do certain things gladly and with a big smile on my face but I'll get it done with my utmost effort. How I feel has nothing to do with how I'm going to do things. Anyway if people want to care about how I feel, they shouldn't be an ass in the first place. But I guess as shit happens, dumbass are all around too.
Another thing this week that made me very very pissed was something that my dumbass cousin said in Facebook. She wrote about how one unknown cousin she's friend with in Facebook has been relaying her status updates to his / her parents and those information come back to her parents. She is like 19 or something so perhaps she should be excused for being brainless and a dumbass but I was very pissed because I thought she was refering to me that I had to ask my mother about it. My mother told me she doesn't want to intrude with other people's dealing anymore since a certain experience with a certain family has scarred our families a lot. I almost wrote some nasty message in the wall of my cousin but thankfully talking to my mom stopped me from doing so. Perhaps I am a dumbass in my own right because I often feel the need to voice out my opinion and when I am strongly against something, I like to make it known even though it may come across as nasty and rude. But I guess we need to rein this kinda thing in and hold certain things back.
Speaking of Facebook. I think this week, they changed the layout the same day Google opened Google+ for all. Personally, I've been contemplating on quitting Facebook or any social network things for some time now. Reason being are all the unnecessary and unimportant things written by my "facebook friends", like my cousin there. I do have Google+ account but I've only had 2 contacts there. I've never post anything there and so I've been just seeing what people wrote. I'm not really sure how to use it. With more contacts in the account, I feel some information overload may happen. The same thing with the new Facebook, I don't like it. So login in to Facebook has kinda become pointless to me. Another thing that annoyed me about Facebook is with how people have used it rather wrongly. Okay about this, maybe I am the idiot one who think more of a person when in fact the person don't think the same way about me or value me as much as I value them. I just feel that when you are close with someone, there are certain things that you should let the person know personally, instead of from Facebook. Imagine knowing something through a status change, with the rest of the 500 something "friends" that the person has. I think it's rude. When I told the story to some people, the first thing they asked, are you close with the person? Well I thought I was when that person had told me some personal stuff, but I guess I am the fool here. We're just facebook friends and seriously for me facebook friends do not necessarily mean we are friends. There are people in my friends list whom I have no intention to speak to ever again. "Why don't you just drop them?", some will say. Simply because I don't care much about Facebook, they can be there or not. Being friends in Facebook doesn't validate the level of your relationship with someone, at least for me. On the example above that I mentioned, it does enlighten me of certain people and people who know me know how strong headed I can be and so instead of dropping that person in Facebook, I just drop them in real life. Loyalty is very important for me in friendships. Some people have the idea that friends come and go. I really don't like that. If I have invested my time and emotion in getting to know someone, I would like the feeling to be mutual. So if someone is gonna be insensitive and self centered then I am just the fool, aren't I? Why would you put someone on the top of your list of people when they don't do the same? I know it sounds selfish and insincere but I dare anyone who thinks they can do it. I think if there's such person, it's what the definition of "loser" is. Don't be anyone's door mat. You deserve better! So if someone is only gonna charge to you when they are sad and all and never share their happiness with you and never listen to you when it's your turn to be sad, then that person is not worth your time. In the case of me, I would rather be all alone and extremely lonely than having to wait around for this kinda people.
On other news, this morning Ms. J flew to Bali and so there goes my lunch partner for the coming week. I wonder how this coming week gonna be for me. Oshie also flew home today, I think he might already have reached home. It's for good. He went through with the plan which he had concocted for some time now. I felt rather heartbroken when he told me but I guess most of our interaction are done online so in that sense there are not much changes. He's been using his last week meeting people around, having his last meal. I got the lunch time slot on Thursday. It was rather sad waving goodbye. Even though we are not amazingly close, it really feels like losing one of your comrade. He asked me if it's never in my mind about going home for good. Oh well it is. In fact the deadline is approaching really fast and as it approaches, I'm torn if I really gonna do it. I'm not extremely fulfilled here and I'm pretty sure I will not be extremely fulfilled at home as well. But as Oshie said, you'd never know. We've given Singapore 11 years and we don't feel belong here so why not give home a try and see what it's like. For my own life, I have no answer for this. I am hoping God will just throw a curve ball or something and just make things clear for me. So that's today's musing guys. I'm gonna spend the rest of weekend with Grey's Anatomy and Fringe now. Hope your week will be splendid!
:) eKa @ 7:02:00 PM •
Saturday, September 17, 2011
today. I thought it was good. I have to say that the draw of this movie for me was the cast however I do think overall the storyline was pretty good. I wonder how close it is to actual life. I wonder if such event should ever happen, there will be an actual draw to determine who's gonna get the vaccine first. I actually thought that that kind of system was rather inefficient and perhaps unjust. Another part which I felt was rather cut short was the resolution of the story for Marion Cotillard's character upon knowing that the Chinese village was given placebos. I thought her storyline was rather interesting. I thought she had Stockholm syndrome. I know some people would think I'm heartless for saying that :P I thought the cast were great but most particularly I like Kate Winslet's character. It's really sad to see her die. It's quite an enlightening movie to see how the world react to an epidemic though the focus of this is only the USA. I don't know how the HongKongers feel with them being portrayed as the source of the virus, like as always. Looking at the map that they were showing to illustrate the spread, I thought it's kinda nice to be living in islands. You're kinda contained to yourself. If you block all flights in and out, you kinda can be fine. The map didn't show much spread in Indonesia though I do have to admit that it's perhaps rather unscientific. The cosmopolitan Jakarta will surely get infected pretty fast, with many of its population travelling to Singapore. Anyways, as I said, it's quite an interesting movie. I'm thinking what will be the next movie I should watch.
On other news, if I have to rate this week, it's actually been quite a good week. Though it is not exact, but it kinda marks a year of me truly leaving a life which has taken quite a big part of my life, 6 years or so, and settling in to a new one. This week should indicate that life is better for me now. I am grateful for it especially if I look at what I left behind but I haven't stopped feeling restless. I still feel that often, so I guess I'm not in a place where I want to be. Either that or I'm just such an ungrateful child.
Other musing right now as I look at this week is also about someone who sticks to a path he's been planning since last year and finally making the jump. If I think about it, I actually get sad so I'm not gonna elaborate it here until I really have to. Another thing was, someone told me about something rather bad happening to her family. She was really really calm about it. In fact it came out rather out of the blue. It wasn't the first thing she told me when we met. Perhaps on one side, she wants to keep this personal thing private but I think it's more of the other side that she doesn't want to make many people worried. I thought she's really strong about it but I guess one needs to be strong for people who are currently vulnerable and need all the support they can get. For all these people, I hope only good things will come to them and that things will be better and better. As for me, I guess my life has been rather okay, so I should just be thankful for the fact that in the eyes of many people, my life is awesome. Allora, buonanotte tutti! Spero che la tua settimana sarà meravigliosa :)
:) eKa @ 7:39:00 PM •
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Sunday Recap on the 10th 911 Day
Hello peeps. How are you guys doing? I'm feeling rather lazy. Well it's Sunday, I should be relaxing and stuff but I have stuff to do and I really don't want to do it but I think I really should :( So maybe I'll do my recap as fast as I can. By the way, I feel the weather is rather cold now. I think it's a good thing I feel that way. I was down with flu this week and to not feel cold is I think a good thing. I'm not totally well yet but I think I'm okay. I'm still not looking forward for this coming week though.
This week has had certain things. Hmm, I'm not really interested to talk about some of it. I think this week I realize that certain things or feeling that you thought will never pass will eventually pass. As cliché as this may sound, time does really heal. Well perhaps it doesn't really heal because certain things can't just be forgotten, however you just simply kinda don't feel the same thing or with the same intensity anymore as time goes. So even as you don't feel so well now and you don't know how you'll be able to feel okay anymore, one day you will feel okay. You just gotta get yourself to that day. On the contrary of that, this week I also realize that there may be certain things that you want to last for a long time but again you can't help that these things will just slip and slide and it will be gone no matter how hard you hold on to it. It is rather sad however I think that's just the way time works. It takes from you the good and the bad.
On other things this week. I did watch a movie, The Smurfs
and my God, it was horrible. I can't even begin to describe how bad it was. It was really for kids, maybe below 10. I don't know even know if this movie can capture the attention of a 10-year old long enough for them to last the whole movie. I like Neil Patrick Harris in this movie though and Jayma Mays, my goodness isn't she just the cutest sweetest thing :P Storyline, it's so weak. They had this one part of Sofia Vergara's and Tim Gunn's characters plotting with the evil Gargamel and it became pointless because it wasn't addressed even more. It's like a waste of time. I also think that sometimes the live actors wasn't believable when they're acting with the smurfs. It's kinda sad because the world of smurf is something that I am sure many people want to escape to. Perhaps they should focus on that rather than bringing them into the real world. I do have to say that it was rather smart of them to address the smurfs as a myth with the wikipedia reference, etc. Still, I think there are better movies out there to watch.
Other thing that I managed to do this week was to check out the lantern festival in Chinese Garden. It's been absent for some years so it's kinda nice to see it back but it wasn't so good. The only one I'd been had a Sanrio theme. I'm not one who's into Hello Kitty and stuff and yet I do feel they made a more interesting and cuter festival than this year's. To see pictures, you can go here
:) eKa @ 8:01:00 PM •
Saturday, September 03, 2011
Crazy, Stupid, Love.
Hello peeps. How are you guys been doing? Today I went back to the cinema after almost one month without watching anything. I guess I've just been having other stuff to do and so though there were some movies which I wanted to see, in the end I decided not to. Some was also on the ground that I should save some money and perhaps I could watch it back home through my bro's dvds. Anyway, finally today I went to watch something. It's Crazy, Stupid, Love.
which I watched with la Gioia and YeeMaggio. The reason why this movie attracted me was Ryan Gosling. Then I read the review for the movie and it was good so I thought this movie has much credibility. It was really so.
First off, I need to start with how I really really like Ryan Gosling :D When others first noticed him from The Notebook
, it was Half Nelson
for me. A movie which I really like. His other movie that I watched was Lars and The Real Girl
. Those movies were obviously heavier than Crazy, Stupid, Love.
and so it's really nice to see him play a different role where he can just be fun and hunky :P Story wise, it was pretty okay up to the point when a twist happened. I really didn't see that coming and I think the whole cinema was gasping and saying "oh my God!". That moment made the movie really great :) I think all the cast were really good that I really couldn't choose anyone who eclipsed the rest. I do have to say that I think Steve Carell and Ryan Gosling are great but perhaps I am bias :) Steve Carell's character's son was also an interesting one, he's so cute. I also have to comment that it's rather amazing that they managed to make Josh Groban so ordinary and not so handsome in this movie :) I really really recommend you to watch it. Ryan Gosling is really handsome :)
Starting this post, I felt that I should write more in details about the movie. However I'm pretty hungry right now and I'm talking to someone in msn. So my thoughts are being splitted into 2 screens. It's weird how you can feel sad about certain things that have very little connection to you. I wanted to elaborate more, I even have typed it out but I erased them all simply because I thought it's just too much personal information. So what can I talk about which is not too personal? Not much really. I mean there's certain opinion I have on certain people which I cannot write here. There's also personal stuff which people told me which I also cannot disclose. So I should stop here? Yeah my own life is pretty same old same old. Like today, class started again. My alarm didn't ring and so I woke up late and got out late and yet it didn't stop me from having a proper breakfast which caused me to be later than my usual late when I arrived in class. I didn't have much time to read the texts Mr.C asked us to read and when I asked if I could read one more time, he told me to arrive on time :P Today a realization did come to my head that I should really be putting more effort in his class. For some reason, there were many times I actually forgot that we had homeworks and so I didn't do them. I really can't explain why. He normally found it funny when I get a bit flustered in class upon finding that we did have homework. Anyways, I think I should really try harder. There's only so much a teacher can teach you, the other part comes from you yourself. So I really need to actually try. I know as much as I was gung ho about it when I left class, that spirit may just die down as I enter class next week. However since I don't have much time left, I should really make all the time I have now really matters. Hmmm, that's it for now peeps. Buonanotte!
:) eKa @ 11:05:00 PM •