Wednesday, April 20, 2022
I have this feeling that tells me not to say a lot or at all about things that I want to do or hope to happen because I'll jinx them and they're not gonna happen and that's basically what happened to me recently. I've been talking about taking JLPT and I was thwarted. I will not be able to take it this July :( I took note of when registration would open but what I didn't anticipate was that it would be filled fast. Registration open at 9 AM and when I tried to register before lunch, I was unable to do so because they're all filled! The disappointment was great that I contemplated going to Jakarta and doing it there. At that time, registration in Jakarta wasn't open yet and I was really thinking about it, but in the end I thought no and I should just use the time to prepare well. I don't know if I will be better prepared for the exam in December though since I don't actually have enough N2 resources to tie me through and I'm pretty much losing momentum now, putting less time to study *sigh* what I'm doing now is I am doing all the N3 practice exams that I can get my hand on and I have to say even for N3, my performance is not spectacular and that makes me kinda more demoralized. Anyways now that I am saying all this out loud, it's possible that I'll get thwarted again :(
Speaking of thwarted, I'm thinking of Johnny Depp and particularly in relation to the Fantastic Beasts movies. On the first one when he was revealed as Grindelwald, I was among those who were like what the fuck but then it grew on me and I actually want to see him through until the end, but as we know it was not to be and he was replaced in the latest movie. Some people may argue that his "cancellation" is justifiable and I'm weary of not being seen as team woman for still wanting to see him play Grindelwald and a pirate, but I really wish he could still do those parts though. It may not make much sense that why on some celebrities who misbehave and have scandal we're like yeah go away and never come back, but on some we feel that their "cancellation" is too much, like that time when Kevin Hart pulled out from hosting the Oscar, I actually felt bad for him, but for Will Smith whose smack on Chris Rock I watched live on TV as it happened, I don't know when I'll be ready to see him again and I actually like Will Smith. When the whole thing happened I was thinking if I could turn back time like 3-5 minutes ago to a world when Will Smith didn't just hit Chris Rock, I would, but as evidenced by his acceptance speech, Will Smith didn't feel the need to, sigh.
Anyways, I actually want to talk about Fantastic Beasts: The Secrets of Dumbledore. I read an article recently about how the Harry Potter universe is losing its magic and how the Fantastic Beasts series might be cursed with all the drama with the actors - good Lord, Ezra Miller is as troubled as Credence :( Maybe there's some truth but for me I'm still loving the Harry Potter universe a lot. The other weeks the local TV was showing all the Harry Potter movies and when we reached the Deathly Hallows parts, I was thinking no matter how many times I watched this, my heart still breaks for Professor Snape. When the first movie in the Fantastic Beasts series came out, I wasn't feeling it much, but they grew on me and I was very much interested to watch the third movie especially after what happened in the second one and I have to say though I have many comments. I like it and I don't mind another movie especially because I don't think things are done. I was expecting to watch the end duel between Dumbledore and Grindelwald, but that didn't happen - like I'm still very much interested to see how the elder wand came into Dumbledore's possesion. Then for me, Credence's storyline is pretty tragic, not tragic literally but tragic on how he was set to be like having a great influence and yet at the end it just kinda fizzled. It made me think of somehow a movie is not adequate because there's only so much you can fit into 2 hours or so. If we have gotten a book then perhaps more things could be illuminated, like what was Grindelwald's plan with Credence. Then there's no Nagini in this third movie and it's kinda unbelievable because Credence and Nagini are close; Nagini is like Credence's only friend, so for them to just go apart like that requires more explanation for me. Did Dumbledore try to help Nagini with her situation? Nagini just went off on her own feels weird, what has she been doing all this time? Also unbelievable is Tina pretty much letting her sister go to the dark side. Okay maybe she tried off-screen, but for her to not be on the team to take Grindelwald down is not believable. What else? I'm falling for Newt's brother, Theseus :D and the scene in the dungeon prison was funny and I'm glad for that moment of levity. Do I miss Johnny Depp? Kinda, a bit, because I would be interested to see how he would play this role even though I think his replacement, Mads Mikkelsen, was quite a good fit as Grindelwald. Like, I can't really picture Johnny Depp doing the very first scene of Dumbledore and Grindelwald meeting and that first scene was really good to let us have a feel about the relationship between Dumbledore and Grindelwald. All and all, I hope they get to do another one. I want to see this story though.
What else about life? The other day I suddenly noticed that it's April and it's going to be 2 years since Dad left. It's weird how the realization didn't just dawn on me as we entered April but at the same time I could still have tears when I think deeply about it *sigh* Live moves on, you feel it more even so these days I guess because people are like getting done with covid, people are travelling, people are not holding back as much. Over here masks outdoor is optional. I tried not having masks in that first few days the rule came into effect and it's like you just have to walk with confidence because everyone are still masked. I don't believe people here think masking is of the utmost importance, but it's just a hassle to take the mask on and off so people just keep them on. I have to say, it's really nice feeling the wind, like I suddenly realize there's a breeze and breeze could be felt by your face and of course your face not sweating is great. Lastly, let me leave you with this picture of a cake I did last month in a trial baking class. I got lotsa help from the instructor. It tastes not bad but hey I just love cakes :D In the world of everything must go on the internet, the cooking school has a decorated section where you could take pictures of your cake. It wasn't important for me, but the instructor told us we could go there to take picture, so I just, okay.
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