Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Started today with Chantal Kreviazuk's, Leaving on a Jet Plane. All my bags are not exactly packed, but getting there. Ah, it's raining, I wish for a sunshine day. I'm going home today peeps. If it's up to me, I would rather go home in December, I may get the chance to spend 3 weeks home then. However, my cousin is getting married this weekend and so I should be there. It's gonna be an interesting wedding, simply because of what've been happening in our family this past year. It may set the tones for weddings to come.Anyway, enough 'bout that. So I will be away for 1 week plus. Already, I can imagine being depressed when I come back here. I hope no major changes occur while I am away. Talked to the Mr this morning, I updated him with the happenings in my life these few days. His comment was of course interesting. Whatever it is, I am leaving. It is time for me to detoxify all the stupid and silly things in my life. Hopefully when I come back, I am no longer sad about a particular stupid thing. The Mr has good news of his own. To it, I can only exclaim excitedly FINALLY! He said currently it's only 1 cm, how funny. All starts small I suppose.
Okay gotta go, paid my bills and wrote this small post. Maybe I can get online later with the wireless connection in Changi airport. Arrivederci tutti! Ci vediamo! Grazie Derrick
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
Went to watch Step Up with Vivy today. Been a while since I last seen her and since I'm leaving, we should at least meet and catch up. I didn't expect much in going to watch Step Up. I was somewhat interested in it because of the dance theme but I do wonder if it was good, compared to Take the Lead for example. From the trailer, the leads weren't that exceptionally beautiful and handsome either. However, my oh my, the male lead played by Channing Tatum just attracted meSo today, the movie was in Vivo city. I went out with my glasses. FYI, I do not go out in public with my glasses (well actually I did, back when I wasn't introduced to contact lens) but today I decided to do so. I suppose, I just wanna try what my life would be like. I mean without perfect eyesight, glasses are parts of my life, so I thought I should just experience going out with them. Another reason was because I somewhat wanted to hide? I guess a lot of people know me without glasses, so perhaps if I should meet anyone today, they might not recognize me with my glasses. I didn't meet anyone I know today, well I don't know if anyone I know saw me, but this glasses story is not interesting, isn't it? Okay, how about a story about lunch? Lunch was at Earl's Swensen where we got a nice place to sit with a good view of Sentosa, but I think that's the only best part of lunch. The waiter was nice, but then he explained to us the restaurant funny policy on their salad bar. I was ordering roast chicken which got me free salad while Vivy's chicken franks didn't come with the salad. First the waiter asked if Vivy wanted to change order because she wouldn't get the salad (we thought we heard him wrongly when he asked that) and then he told us that there's no sharing of salad allowed, which means me who do not eat vegetables can not give my salad to Vivy. I said "How weird". In which he went on with stories about how a family only ordered 1 thing that came with the salad and kept on refilling the salad bowl for the whole family until his manager called a meeting to instruct all the waiters to tell their patrons about the no sharing of salad allowed. Raise your hand if you think this is freaking stupid. Hello?!? If your salad bar is so exquisite that it can cost you loses, then stop the refill policy instead of telling us that there's no sharing of salad allowed. Can you imagine eating something and being told that you can not share it. Imagine, imagine, it's so stupid and silly. The food itself wasn't that nice. My roast chicken happened to be tough and was still a bit bloody at the joint *sigH* I think the normal Swensens have better food. I don't know how their other foods are. The spaghetti looked interesting, but I don't know if it's really good. Dinner wasn't satisfying either. Today I didn't really eat well *sigH*
Yesterday, I had a surprising news for me. Very surprising, considering it was very unexpected. I didn't know how I felt when the news was delivered and I still don't know how I feel. The interesting part is perhaps me not making plan to move on and yet a plan was made for me. I am not sure if I can do it, but if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it? It does get me thinking of a few things. However, I think I should not think so much, because things can always change and a lot of changes are happening. On other part of my life which the Mr is perhaps very skeptical in, I just want to say "Okay, it's done. I'm gonna let go now or at least try to let go" and it seems like the timing is conducive to do so.
Every second chance begins with a first step.
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
Went for dinner and movie with the Pradas yesterday to celebrate something. Was it much of a celebration? Dinner was at Secret Recipe, I'm seriously not so keen on this place, however it was a convenient choice at that time. I don't think we had a satisfying dinner. Had a good laugh with the card, how it was so random. It's pretty funny how something that we get for someone to make her happy can make us giggle in the process. Well Done, MissyAfter dinner we went to watch A Good Year, starring Russell Crowe. It's about this cutthroat business man who got a chateau with a vineyard in France from his dead uncle. The story was pretty typical, there's a girl, a family, and all and how this man turned into a better person by the end of the story. Not a bad movie, interesting lines, good casts, good story telling. I was not so keen on Russell Crowe, because he is not exceptionally handsome but I must say that he is a good actor. Freddie Highmore played the younger Russell Crowe. When I first saw him, I thought this boy looked familiar and turned out it's Freddie (Finding Neverland, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory). Oh dear, how he has grown tall. Tall and scrawny boy. I just love this boy. His best scene in this movie is perhaps the tennis match with his uncle. You know that it's almost a month since I last watched a movie (the last one was The Departed on October 14), somehow I feel it's way too long for me.
Not having a good week this week. In addition to my computer almost on fire, I lost a few things (which cost me money!) *sigH* Was told that I was short tempered. I am not denying it, but I just feel sorry that it is. I should have controlled myself better. I should be more patience and I should love more. Aah...really not having a good year, but I can not blame it on the cosmic power that be for all my unluckiness and all the bad decision and move that I make. It's still me who react and make the move. Just finished sending a mail to the Mr telling the truth, the whole truth, which noone knows. Vivy will know too, I guess, but not yet. Don't really have the time to meet her just yet. Ah ... I should say less. Seriously Eka, trust noone, or at least trust noone that is near? Maybe why I can trust the Mr so much.
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Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Hello my dear, how are you? I hope you are having a good day. How strange, such words should be said to a person straight away instead of being written here with the possibility of not getting read (read paragraph 2 to know why I think that way). Decided to write because of an unfortunate event that I experienced today. Feeling really sad about it and feel like hitting the wall, though it's not my fault and totally out of my control. However, I just feel "DAMN IT!!! WHY AM I SO FREAKING UNLUCKY!!!"The title is inspired by Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. Please note that my Wednesday doesn't have an 's'. Well I suppose, I don't have that nice person to spend my Wednesday with. When I do have, I hope that person will write our story. Anyway, I love Tuesdays with Morrie more than The 5 People You Meet in Heaven. Tuesdays with Morrie is quite inspiring for me. I must admit though that it is still hard for me to forsake my pride and just be nice to people and ask forgiveness and all. I understand it's very silly and sad of me to say that, however some things are just ... well, I have too much pride. There were some lines from the book that I really like. The lazy me only wrote 1 line into my book and that is: Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. The line is so profound to me because it's what I was (still am actually) feeling. I miss the Mr. I know he's gonna tell me that I'm dumb, but perhaps that what I need, a reminder to get me out of the sad feeling I shouldn't be feeling *sigH*
Gonna go now and pretend to contemplate on my life. Meanwhile, here are some pictures that I took from my newly fixed camera. It's about, let's call it Woof. This dog was given by my dear, Dagi, on my birthday (this year, I think). It was put inside a mug and of course the unlucky me broke that mug, which I haven't even used, on Sunday. Anyway, I just realize how cute this dog is. He's small and I just try to act as the photographer and take a black and white (photoshop enhanced) picture of my dear dog. Any idea for the name, Woof?
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
The Adventure of the Three Girls at Chinatown
As I am writing this, my vaio is on my bed, it is not actually on a flat surface, so it's kinda shaky. I am wondering if I should write while lying down, I don't think that would be too comfortable though. I'm using Internet Explorer 7 now. Still trying to get used to with all the buttons, tabs, and all. However, I must say that the texts are displayed nicer, the texts just seem a bit softer, though blurry can also be the word to describe how it look. Either way, I like it.So about the title. It's pretty much the continuation of last week adventure, starring the same people. With our Sentosa tour package, we also have tickets to go to the Chinese Heritage Museum at Chinatown. It was my first visit to Chinatown. The area where we wandered around was kinda interesting. The museum was a bit freaky for me, maybe because it's dark, maybe because it's old (picture a lot of hardship), and maybe the space was kinda too confining for me (feeling slightly claustrophobic?). We saw the small rooms where there used to be Chinese family living in it. I can't imagine being in that situation. The flyingNun said that the rooms have the smell of oldness in it, like our grandparents' place and she was very right. It does feel reminiscence. One of the funny thing we notice is that the 3 of us girls actually still have the old sewing machines (the singer brand) in our homes. It's pretty interesting. They gave me good explanation of how come our mothers could have it. As silly as it may sound, I'm thinking of getting my daughter a sewing machine when she gets married (that is if I am married myself and end up with a daughter)
After Chinatown, we headed down to Marina Square and Suntec City. We had our dinner and walked in some of the shops. I didn't buy anything. I realize I can spend easily on food and entertainment, but not really on clothing and accessories. I guess some people just have their hobby? as my aunt would say. Didn't go to a dinner which I should attend, didn't really feel like it, maybe some other time. Owen Wilson is on tv, not a particularly handsome guy, but I found him to be very captivating.
Ms. J was all over the Korean drama, Princess Hours, some time ago and filled me out about how she really loved it. The curious me, catched glimpses of the series on tv and I was pretty much hooked. The point of me telling you this, because the handsome guy (whom I really like) liked this girl who was married to the Prince (who Ms. J really likes) and I just really feel for this handsome guy. It's like I just feel heartbroken seeing him so miserable. Maybe it's all those feeling of liking someone who doesn't feel the same way or have other people (I'm sure all of you have one point in your life felt this), all those feeling in me just came out when I watch the series and see this very reliable and handsome guy. Saw something like this written in someone's nick in my msn list: "You really can't choose who to fall in love with. Gosh it is so true, very very true. One time in the past, I always said I wished I had a crush, because there were times when I had a crush, I could feel so happy just seeing that guy. It really made my day. However, the day I found out the guy had a girlfriend, well my heart was really broken. It's really sad. Last night, someone told me a love story that started happy and ended up really sad. My conclusion after hearing that is love sucks! After all the beautiful and sweet things, the bad one could come and when it comes one could really be heartbroken into pieces. So is it really worth it? Giving your time, attention, and heart to someone with the possibility of getting hurt? I like to believe it is, however *sigH* getting heartbroken is ... as I found out, can make you fat!
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
The Adventure of the Three Girls at Sentosa
It started with sms and msn discussion late Thursday afternoon. I was pretty frustrated with all the stupid plans to go here and there with other people which at that point in time seemed wasn't happening, that I just popped the question to Ms. J if she wanted to go to Sentosa on Saturday (we've been talking about going to Sentosa in the near future). The same question was popped to the flyingNun, in which she replied "Would it be fun? I can not swim". I was stunned and had a good laugh with her reply. They all surprisingly said yes. We briefly discussed how we would go about it on Friday and off we went excitedly yesterday.The girls wanted to try the cable car, so we went to the ticket counter at Harbor Front. Saw some tour packages there and we chose the one with the cable car, Underwater World and Cinemania in it. The cable car ride was interesting. When we went off, I have to admit that there was a slight nervousness in me as we were on the air and slightly swaying
Then off we went to the 4D ride which I was really excited about. It was interesting though I felt the seat movement didn't really match what was happening on the story. We felt a jerk down when a character was hit by a door, so it was rather weird for me. The rest of the effect was pretty cool, the wind, the bats and the bees and the water, they were pretty interesting. After it we rushed to go to the Dolphin Lagoon but we were totally late and it's all because of the waiting for the buses. I feel pretty bad that we missed, it's a sign that we should go again girls! me and hopefully my good camera. Anyways, so we missed and in the end walked a bit on the sand. A bit because we wanted to get to Cinemania and to the musical fountain on time. The cinemania rides were dizzying for me. I was feeling a bit dizzy after the first one and the second ride of the roller coaster, man! I just wanted it to stop quickly. Ms. J was enjoying it thoroughly though
Reached home quite late last night and was really tired. However I still made my way to Orchard today. It was surprising really, because Sunday is the day when I hibernate like a polar bear for the week ahead. However, Esther, my primary and junior high school friend is in town and she has been very friendly to look for me. So as my mother instructed, I met up with her. She's looking really pretty. I wonder if I wear skirts and make up and all, will I be like 5 times prettier? I wonder if I feel the same, to me and to the rest who know me for how I am and how I look like. They say appearance doesn't change what you are inside, but I just wonder if it changes you subconsciously. Anyways, so we had lunch, walked in and out of shops (seriously, I think I'm really boring when I do this kinda thing, I hope she didn't get too tortured and bored with my "enthusiasm"), and we had gelato (I realize now not all sweet things entice me), and that's pretty much it. I went back to scrub my toilet. Esther is really nice. We weren't actually close back then in school but she was nice and it was really good meeting her today. I get to do something different on a Sunday. So that's my weekend peeps. Pretty glad that my Saturday was pretty happening yesterday. I hope it will continue to be interesting in the weeks to come
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Happy Lebaran everyoneAs you can see in my first paragraph that I have nothing interesting to say, so I'm gonna blog about some things from my thoughts list. Let's start with the topic of Good Karma. The last time I explained what I think about it, I was told that I sounded like a Sunday school teacher *sigH*. Actually, I kinda remembered having a conversation about this with Vivy during a dinner in NUH. You reap what you sow. A lot of time you think like that I suppose and I do believe in bad karma fully but is there such thing as good karma? You do good things and good things happen to you? Well, perhaps. I got to thinking about this after hearing it quite often some time ago. I may perhaps start the whole good karma concept thingy but after thinking about it, the whole concept of good karma just feel a bit wrong to me. The thing is you should do good things because you WANT to do good things. I couldn't believe I forget this concept when as Indonesian, we were pretty much brainwashed with such concept in our civic and moral education lesson (menolong dengan ikhlas dan tanpa pamrih). When you do good things in hope that good things would happen to you, then you are not really sincere about it, are you? You kinda wish something in return. It shouldn't be like that. If you do get something in return, then it is a blessing from God. Hence why you can't expect or perhaps demand for good things to happen just because you have been a good boy or girl. So why do you do good things in the first place if you're not getting anything in return? Because that what Jesus would do
I am sleepy and it's raining slightly. A good time to sleep. Adieu for now peeps. Maybe I will have more chance to write more things from my scribble of thoughts and my post will be a bit more meaningful
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
22 October 2005, that was the date that I wrote in the first page of my note book. It was really a year ago. A year ago, I started something because one should use one's time well. I started it with every intention to get me somewhere with it. I do learn a lot of things, if it's going to get me somewhere, we will see. Unexpectedly, there's this big possibility of me not continuing doing what I have been doing, well at least for 10 weeks (hopefully only for 10 weeks). I'm not so keen of this happening because I always feel I'm running out of time, so to stop doing something just feel like a waste. However it's for the best I suppose. I'm pretty happy how the 5 of us who are still together are really together. We are very united, and somehow it surprises me. Carl is the one who was with me since the beginning. She sounded very chirpy on the phone when she called me this weekSo today is a public holiday. So for the first time in a long time, I actually slept last night without setting my alarm. The good news now is that I can spend many Saturdays doing so
Take your pick people. Some people purposely make other people life miserable is rather too cutthroat for me, however if you know what shit I am dealing with, you can't help wondering. Anywho, since surprisingly I could fix the things quite fast (Thank God for not making me so dumb), I'm not really in a wanna-kill-someone-and-curse pissed mood. I have this strange feeling that there are some other anomaly though, so my mood can still change. Let me illustrate the situation. It's like there's this small river, you just need to make something for people to cross the river happily and safely. A raft or perhaps a small boat can do, but this smart person made a ship. A posh ship, with great engine and all. However this person didn't check that if you want to make a ship with toilet and all, check if the plumbing works correctly. The plumbing has a leak which causes the passengers to have a bad time (and perhaps unsafe because they can trip and fall because of the water) when crossing the river. This causes the ship to be not that appealing for them to use. Hence it defeats the objective of getting people cross the river safely and happily. I want to say "Bloody Hell" because why can't we just stick to the basic. It may not be challenging however you should focus on the objective first before getting all fancy and miss the target. Okay, enough about that.
I have written long and unimportant things, haven't I? I actually have this list of thoughts that I was thinking of writing in this blog when I have nothing interesting to tell. However since this post is already quite long, I will spare you and I will write those things on a later date. I hope you have a more meaningful day peeps.
PS: I have been writing unimportant stuff for 3 years now. Some things do change for the better but I just feel things have not been improving as much as it can or should be. So tired of feeling like a failure.
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
*yay!* Went to watch The Departed with Vivy today and I love it. Tell me people, does Eng Wah Cinema in Singapore always start on time according to the time stated? We were around 10 mins late. I think in other cinema the movie wouldn't have started but we missed a few bits. The movie is awesome. I love it, but of course I've never watched Infernal Affairs, of which The Departed was based, so perhaps my comment would be somewhat invalid. Anyways, why was I so eager to watch The Departed? Because there was Leonardo DiCaprio and it was directed by Martin Scorsese. The last movies by Scorsese that I watched were Gangs of New York (was on tv recently) and The Aviator. Both had Leonardo in it and both didn't really amaze me that much. However, the movie from Scorsese that really won me over was Kundun which I would totally recommend to everyone. I myself would really like to watch it again, since I didn't watch it properly last time. I think I missed some parts of it and I didn't manage to watch it 'til the end, but the movie is really really good. It's about the childhood of Dalai Lama and how he was chosen as Dalai Lama. Totally awesome.Anyways, The Departed. I love it. Couldn't praise on originality because it's obviously not. However I found the lines, though filled they were with FUCK, they were very witty. Love it and had a good laugh with them. On why I love the movie? I guess because it is just so cool. The ending was pretty dramatic, though, perhaps a bit too much. Feel sad when Martin Sheen's character died but I supposed it was necessary. Was sad when Leonardo died the way he was, but I suppose it was also somewhat necessary. Was happy when Matt Damon's character died, because I just couldn't accept that evil would triumph. Oh should I not have written all these facts?
Let me now dice the characters. Let's start with Martin Sheen. Off the bat, he came off as a very fatherly figure. It's pretty comical, how calm and easy he looked when Mark Wahlberg's character tried to break Leonardo's character when they first met (it was the first scene that I watched). It was really sad the way Martin Sheen's character died. Mark Wahlberg's lines have the word 'fuck' with every single breathe. He was pretty okay. Jack Nicholson as the gangster boss was evil and manic. He just really got it as the bad guy. Leonardo was okay, what I mean by okay is he's good, just in case you think he only sells his look (that doesn't mean I don't like the way he looks though, Leo is always handsome). Leonardo can really act and he, as in his previous movies so far, really showed seriousness in what he does. Matt Damon was surprising for me. I guess so far I've always seen him in nice and demure characters but in this one he came off as sneaky and cunning and it was good because it's so different with what I normally see him in. I can not point out who stood out the most but I think Damon came close. Love the movie, really love it! Oshie did tell me to watch Infernal Affairs first before I watched this one, sadly to say I didn't and don't really intend to but I still want to recommend this movie to all of you. It's cool, really!
Today, I've got my tickets home. It wasn't as expensive as I thought it would be, but I suppose it wasn't peak time. It was an effort getting it because I actually got lost. I'm really bad in direction and I seriously wonder if I can find my way in a foreign place. Finally confessed that I'm pretty plain to the people I've been spending my Saturdays with. I think they figured that much however I suppose the confirmation still took them by surprise. You know, I'm sure you've had that feeling before when you expect something to happen and when it finally happen, you still feel shock and weird about it. Anyways, there are more people now who want to do things on me so that I would be more interesting. People have tried and not many were successful in doing so. I do wonder if it's necessary. The thing is it's very important for me to like me because apparently counting on people to like you is not always successful. Hence baby, make sure you like yourself and you can always count on yourself. This week I've learnt again that people could say that they would always be there for you or they would shield you from stupid and bad things but when the time come, well it didn't happen. I should really really really remember to trust noone. However this morning, I also learnt that God would take care of you. He would give you someone when you need someone (though you may not realize it yet), I suppose I should just take it as it comes.
Dinner with Vivy was good. Had blended avocado and it was very very very good. Talked to Vivy about the usual stuff that we've been talking about each time we meet. Damn, I think it may start to come as painful for her as it's already is for the Mr. Alrighty, I guess that's all for now peeps. It's getting really late now. Take care okay. Oh yeah, I just remember. Had a grinning good time with Ms. Kiera this week about our infatuation to Wentworth Miller. He's one darn fine boy
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
I'm feeling that my room is too hot right now. I guess everyone is suffocating with the air these days. Of all my years in Singapore, this is my first time noticing the haze from Indonesia. I'm quite speechless really. There's actually nothing interesting to tell, however let me just give you bits and pieces of my boring life this week.Didn't get to buy my tickets home today. Didn't feel like it for very strange reason. I just have a funny feeling about it. My mom said I still had much time. I think I would get it next week.
Watched the Pride and Prejudice series, produced by BBC, courtesy of the flyingNun this week. Colin Firth played Mr. Darcy. I do love Mr. Darcy, however Mr. Darcy was Mr. Darcy, unbelievably arrogant and had too much pride. It took me quite a while to take a liking on him, but in the end I did really like him. Why? Because Mr. Darcy is such a gentleman. Mr. Darcy would protect the girl he loves and make sure that nothing bad would happen to her. He's reliable and aaahh, how I would love a Mr. Darcy for me
The air can really influence your mood. Feeling rather in the stressful and fearful side now. Getting tired of answering "I don't know (yet)". I don't have much time left and I just feel that things are not going to work out. Surprisingly met my high school friend, Herry, in Orchard road today. I was really surprised to learn that the closing of the link way from the mrt station to Wisma Atria has taken effect. It was of the utmost inconvenient. Anyway, talked to Herry for quite a while. Apparently he's gonna be here for quite some time more. I guess some people just like it being here.
Was thinking of writing something else, but decided not to. Kinda too heavy for my hazy head right now and I think it's not really worth saying much. Had a really small talk with Mr. Italian job this week and it's really funny how he's taking a totally different view of a certain matter compared to the Mr. I wonder when I talk to the both Mr, is it what it feels like to have older brothers. I know both of them mean well for me, but they are just so different and it's really funny to think about it. I guess in summary, one wanna me to have fun and take the plunge while the other wanna me to be more on the safer side. Either way, both wanna me to be happier. I miss the Mr, it does get pretty lonely and empty when I can't just send him a message. However as usual, people wouldn't always be there for you. Take care peeps!
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