Monday, October 27, 2008
Seriously trying not to nap right now even though the sky is pretty dark and rain seems to be coming soon. It's just I hadn't had a good night sleep for the past 2 nights and so I want to tire myself out, so that I can sleep well tonight *finger crossed*So I woke up early today. Managed to do something that I should have done more often. I am sorry for not making time for it, but glad as well that today I made it. Then I went to watch High School Musical 3. Alright, if you want to roll your eyes, you can do so
I can't tell you to watch it, especially if you are never into it. I did make Dewi wait for the High School Musical performance though, when we were in Disneyland last time
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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Hello guys, the head is rather spinning so I'm just gonna try to make this fast.Went to watch Burn After Reading with la Gioia yesterday. I have to say that I didn't like it because it was seriously twisted. The movie has lots of famous actors and I have to say that they were really good. My favorite one was actually John Malkovich, I thought he was really good. Many people would perhaps be amused with Brad Pitt who I think has never really been seen to be this goofy. Yeah, he was funny but somehow I found that he's too old to play they character. It's kinda strange that the Coen Brothers already had him in mind as they were writing the script. Found out that George Clooney and Tilda Swinton weren't in good terms and yet their characters were really cozy in the movie. Hmm ... maybe that's why they did so well in Michael Clayton. Anyways, I do not like the movie, but that doesn't mean it was bad. I don't like the story but I suppose it was interesting and the lines were witty, I have to say. The characters though idiotic as they were, they were interesting. So yeah, that's about it.
On Monday, we had our usual meet-up with the Ibu and all. Man, it's damn boring. Anyways, so everyone were drawing and all, but I couldn't do it because I was rather in a too-visible position, so I just ended up scribbling away in Italiano and I was kinda so happy because I wrote personal and private things and yet no one can understand it. Somehow also, I was able to write cheezy things freely which I wouldn't be able to write in English because ... well because they are cheezy!
Mi piace. Ero molto felice quando abbiamo passato il tempo insieme a Sabato notte. Infatti sono ancora felice oggi. Ma lui è lui. La sua mentalità non è matura. Come al solito mi cerca quando ha un problema e io sempre vengo a lui. Mi piace. Non posso dire una bugia. Sono stupida, io so. Devo smettere e lasciarlo prima il mio cuore è rotto di nuovo. Dai Eka! La testa è giusta. Segui la tua testa, non sequire il tuo cuore.
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Saturday, October 18, 2008
Hello peeps!Nothing interesting this week. Had class this morning as usual and the peeps were late, aarrrghh, so I had to talk with Anna Maria while waiting for them to come and since yours truly non parla l'italiano bene, it got pretty stressful. However, I did realize how I love learning this language. Seriously. Today I realize again that I do get excited hearing this language spoken, understanding it and somewhat speaking it. If only I've put in more effort to improve myself. We are in the verge of extinction for the next term. So far, there's just me, Q, and R. I was actually seriously contemplating to stop but last week AN said he wanted to continue and it seemed that I was person #5 to make it happen, but that ragazzo didn't even apply this week! He said he wants to be person #5 *sigh* Guys!!! I guess I do want to continue, I just wish we can have more people so that things don't get too quiet
After class, went to the usual place for lunch. Saw that there's branded sale in the Takashimaya court and though I am dead poor, I seriously got tempted with the things (bags especially) and went home with some perfumes. Got pretty sad for 2 reasons: 1) I'm not rich, 2) I have no bloody space here in Singapore. I have a room that I rent but it's not my room. The place where I store my things here are not mine and seriously living this way is depressing!!! I want my own place and this desire is enough to entertain thoughts of going back home permanently.
Finished reading Eat, Pray, Love, or as Oshie liked to call it, the ultimate rich slacker book. It tells the story of this American divorcée who spent a year in 3 countries, Italy, India, Indonesia (Bali) to so call "find her self". Yes definitely if I can do it without coming out of it with 0 dollar, I would like to do the same, senza the Ashram in India though. I do get excited reading parts of the books, however all the spiritual journey and enlightening moments do make me squirm in skepticism slightly. Hmmm ... I am not one who believe in self-help books but somehow all the books I've chosen recently, unknowingly, somewhat fall into that category, for the exception of The Kite Runner. I wonder if it is a sign from God. Anyway Eat, Pray, Love did make me try to pray to God better. I want to get a new book, but then I went back to the 2 reasoning above, sigh, so I may have to borrow now, but when you borrow, you can't actually read the one you really want
On other news, Vivy missed her flight this morning (OH MY GOD!) and so if I read it correctly, she had to pay around 3K for a new ticket. Lucky her is going to America for another conference. I'm asking for Obama's related things when she comes back and yes I am a supporter of Barack Obama.
Rista is going back to Australia in these few days. Back to the life she knows, though I think she will get a whole new perspective on it. I don't know if she will, but I would if I were her. I wish her all the best.
Yours truly have another week to live. I'm taking it week by week. Just yesterday I was telling Gascoigne, I don't know how I am to survive here until Gennaio. Aarrghhh, take it week by week, I guess.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Went to watch Bottle Shock yesterday, alone. The movie is about wine. At first glance, one may be reminded to Sideways but Bottle Shock is really about the wine. Well okay, there's some other unnecessary stuffs but the wine is really the backbone of the story. It is based on a true story of how wine produced in America triumphed over the ones produced in France. I seriously felt like drinking lots of wine and learning about them after watching this movie. However, I don't think my palate is that sophisticated. Of all the wine I have tasted, I have never encountered one which taste I like. As a matter of fact, I don't like any of them, but I'm not giving up just yetBottle shock itself or also called Bottle sickness means (as written in Wikipedia), a temporary condition of wine characterized by muted or disjointed fruit flavors. It often occurs immediately after bottling or when wines (usually fragile wines) are given an additional dose of sulfur (in the form of sulfur dioxide or sulfite solution), and are subject to other forms of handling and transport. After several months the condition usually disappears. Interesting, eh? I really like the movie. Though I thought some of the story was seriously unnecessary, like the stupid love story. The actors were not bad. Alan Rickman was really good. He is a really talented actor. Like wine perhaps this movie may not go down well with some people, some of you will perhaps find it boring and such but I really really like it.
Really loved the whole watching it alone part. It kinda made me wonder if part of the reason God hasn't let me have "the guy" is because I love my alone time so much. Yeah, I have to be honest that I do get bored with myself too, but sometime I really get a kick of doing things alone and being by myself.
Hmm ... an unimportant thing that I want to share. These days, I've been so in love with a song from Maliq & d'Essentials - Dia. I found this song when I was blog hopping and I like it so much. I am not one who loops a song over and over again like the so many people I know when they are so into a song. I thought doing that would make you get bored of the song quickly and why would you want to get bored of something that you like? However, I've been looping this song a lot and I haven't get bored! On the bus today, I feel, well ... I should perhaps just take this song as a form of prayer, dia seperti apa yang selalu ku nantikan, aku inginkan .... Seriously, whenever I listen to the song, I always feel like singing with chorus, diaaaaaaaa ..... . But I can't sing!
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Friday, October 10, 2008
In Front of LT 29 or Another Friday Story
Hi peeps. Wanted to take myself out again today and watch something but decided I should be good and go home as soon as I could. Had flu this week, took off earlier on Tuesday and I straight away went to see the doc. Asked for a day off for Wednesday but she was very strict and didn't want to give me any because I had no fever, but I said I needed to rest and in the end she gave in. See, my doctor is very strict, I don't know how many people can get by so easily with their doctors.I sat in front of NUS LT 29 today while waiting for Vivy to come for dinner. There was a small bazaar in front of LT 27 and so that's why I sat in front of LT 29. It hit me that it's been 5 years since I left NUS, and my head was kinda screaming, OH MY GOD!!! Half a decade man! It sounds like a lot of years and thinking what I have been doing in that 5 years, which is basically nothing much felt rather depressing. I actually felt rather sorry for an instance that I am not holding any master degree. Not that I want to or have ever put any thoughts into it but I just felt that 5 years is quite a long time which you can use to do something big and major in life and the fact that I don't feel I have achieved anything amazing made me rather sad. 1) I am maybe right that I haven't achieved anything major since I graduated. 2) I am perhaps an ungrateful moron who cannot see that I have done good things. I don't know. Anyway, I was sitting there, remembering that the shuttle bus used to stop in the car park near LT 29, and I got reminded of one thing that happened in this area a year ago. I have mixed emotion. I am glad that the brain has managed to provide logic to battle the emotion.
Today I found out that a dear friend broke up with his fiance. She did tell me that it was imminent but she would only clear things when she reached home. So she did reach home and it did happen. When she told me about it weeks ago, I refrained from giving my opinion because the main issue that she had (I think) was the fact that she's unwilling to give up the life that she is currently experiencing to settle down and I totally agree with that. So I just listened without encouraging and ensuring her that she's doing the right thing *sigh* Over lunch I asked la Gioia if this reason is selfish. She said no. I said maybe that's the reason why we're still single
Good night peeps, have a good one!
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Friday, October 03, 2008
Saw a patch of rainbow this evening when I was in the bus. A little patch but it made me smile nonetheless. I think seeing a rainbow is one of the coolest thing to experience in life, even though it might be only a small patch. I was thinking that God is good. I pretty much had a good day today even though I do feel rather sinful for not being so productive today. Didn't come out with anything substantial and I guess the lack of interest and perhaps laziness just caused me not to push myself harder *sigh*The day started of pretty good with Starfish swinging by this morning to give me some rendang and lontong. Ain't he sweet? It's been the 2nd year now he gave me his mother's rendang which he's so proud of.
Then the crazy me took myself out this evening for a movie. I went to watch Eagle Eye. Well I thought the story was pretty illogical at times. Tell me if you come back to your apartment and see all these terrorism stuffs which aren't yours, are you not going to quickly call 911, instead of touching the things? I feel the movie has elements from Enemy of the State and I, Robot in it. The climax made me gasp and I actually thought it was gonna be a sad ending. I thought it would be a sad ending indeed but rather necessary. However Hollywood does not disappoint and all ends well, which I actually prefer
On other news, I am so broke and yet I am still spending like crazy even though I will need some money in the near future *sigh* It seriously sucks being poor. Mom sent me a message some time ago. Apparently they're taking the plane back from Jogja and they had arrived safely in Jakarta (thank God!). Knowing mom, I'm pretty sure she'll be awake at the crack of dawn tomorrow morning and go to work. I so want to go home *sigh* Good night my dears
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Wednesday, October 01, 2008
He will bring you through it. I do have to repeat that mantra. Pretty much got a bomb yesterday. All were smiling and laughing, perhaps their way of not putting pressure and stress on me but it doesn't really help because my stress level just soars. I think people have more confidence in me than myself, I don't know why. Kinda can't believe that this is what God brings me to. Inside I was like, seriously God? Seriously?!?! This is what you want me to do? You pray and you ask for certain things and yet somehow God seems to steer you to other direction. Sigh. I don't want to fail and I wish I can say "Failure is not an option!" loudly but I don't even know where to start. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it ... and so that is the mantra that I have to repeat.Feeling hungry now. Feeling dizzy too, like there are knots in my head. Sigh. Mom and dad are in Jogjakarta now. Hhmm ... how I wish I can eat some Lebaran food in Indo, ketupat and all. Speaking of Lebaran, I notice something different between the Indonesian muslims and the Singaporean muslims. It actually started as a joke with Gascoigne last night as I wished him Happy Lebaran. I am perhaps bad saying this but I was watching the patterns and the result was 100% correct. The Singaporeans muslims said thank you when I wished them Happy Lebaran. The Indonesians said thank you and asked for forgiveness if they have done anything wrong to me and this include people like Dendry, Ayu, and Anggara whom I haven't met and talked to for a long time. Anggara was even more amazing, sending me an sms this morning to give his Lebaran greeting, even before I managed to wish him! Looking at the other non-muslim Indonesian friends in facebook and msn, they seem to be also adopting this holiday to ask for forgiveness from everyone. I do feel Lebaran is one of the meaningful religious holidays. Perhaps next time, I can also ask for forgiveness when I wish the muslim friends, Happy Lebaran. I know I have mistakes as well and I can be a difficult person to get along with
So I spent this holiday taking myself out for a little alone time. I went to watch The House Bunny. Yeah you might be wondering why I watch some brainless movie. Well it was either this or Eagle Eye but the timing was leaning towards this one. The House Bunny is actually pretty good and entertaining. In some brainless way, I kinda like it very much. I thought Anna Faris did a good job, she came across as pretty lovable despite of the way her character's brain is. I like Colin Hanks, such a charming guy, a type of guy I can fall with. Another famous child of a celebrity in the movie is Rumer Willis (daughter of Demi Moore and Bruce Willis), she's pretty and there's also Katharine McPhee and I see why Oshie can go gugu gaga over her
Okay, I gotta go. The head is seriously killing me. Aaarrgghh.
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Saturday, September 27, 2008
Hello peeps, how are you? Another Saturday without nap for me.First, let me start off with sharing the good news. I passed CELI 3 exam. Well Chiara is known to make mistake sometime, but I don't think she made a mistake on mine. So she emailed me telling me that I pass and I got a C. Yes, it is only a C, but a C was pretty much what I was aiming for when I was studying and strategizing for the exam. I am just freakin' delighted to pass, it's quite un miracolo. I kinda feel it's a nice wrap on my Italian studies all this time. After the CELI 3 exam back in June, I've decided I'm not gonna take CELI 4. Basta, grazie. I do feel that the time to stop my Italian lesson is nearing even though I still can't speak much. I just feel like learning new things. We will see, there's the 'want' and then there's the practicality. So I haven't made a final decision on what I will do next.
Didn't go to class today. I went to Aika's wedding ceremony. Aika was of course gorgeous as she is and I'm happy for her. Was expecting to meet all the NUS friends, but not many came. It was good nonetheless to meet JTG, Arief, Dwi, Siska, Indah, and Velina. Unfortunately, we didn't spend much time to catch up. Life really has taken all of us on different paths and I'm glad some people are still as nice and friendly as they were, like JTG for example. It did feel weird to me being there and see that the people I thought would be there, wasn't there. Funny how life and relationship go, really. Especially after hearing who's married, who's with kids and stuff. The time I spent with my NUS friends are the past, and to hear where they are now without hearing the story of how they get there just feels rather amazing and at times unbelievable. God is really amazing, I suppose. He really has His plans and even though as human you cannot comprehend it, it doesn't mean it's not gonna work out. So how I get to my point B will be interesting indeed. Stay tune peeps.
After the wedding, me and Vivy went to watch Mamma Mia. It was okay, I suppose. I wasn't really blown away with it. I don't think the singing was amazing. The senior actresses and actors definitely outshined the younger ones. Meryl Streep, Julie Walters, Pierce Brosnan were good. I especially like Julie Walters. She's definitely underused as Mrs Weasley in the Potter movies.
My good friend Emilia is in town with the future in-laws. I don't know if I will get to see her. Hopefully yes. She's leaving town tomorrow evening, so we don't actually have much time. Oh well. On other news, well nothing much. Life is just so-so I suppose. Be happy still, even if you can't, be grateful still. That's one thing I should practice more, saying grace. Ciao a tutti!
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Took the afternoon off today. Was supposed to watch Mamma Mia but I had some things to do so the timing just didn't make it possible. In the end, went with Vivy to the singapore biennale 2008. I'm writing it the way it was written in the guide book. I'm not trying to be artsy here. The going to there proved to be a real pain in the ass. Many of the road were closed because of preparation for the F1 races. I found out from the news just now that today is actually the first day. Lucky us. I was getting really pissed actually, because I hadn't had lunch, it was hot, and the dumbest thing ever, I took a bus from Bugis wanting to go to Suntec only to end up in Bugis again. Aaarrrghhh. I realize when I am tired, especially if it is caused by walking some distance in the hot sun, I do actually throw tantrums and I become super bitch. I guess Dewi perhaps felt that when we went on our holiday. We did have to walk quite a lot today, since the exhibitions are in City Hall and the South Beach Development.The Biennale was ... well, I just couldn't get it, didn't understand many of it. The majority of it are installation arts. Only a few featured photographs or art works which were rather obvious to enjoy. Some things really ... I don't understand. Example: the close up photographs of a chewing gum. Mind you they even displayed the chewed chewing gum used as the model. Then one exhibit from an Italian guy was the exhibition of many bar soaps under a tree. Then there's an Indonesian video showing how a motor cyclist compete with public transport in an nintendo game kinda way (I couldn't explain it well). I don't get this kind of arts. I guess I'm pretty much a straight forward person in my point of view. I don't really enjoy having to absorb the display, think about it and process it and try to find the hidden meaning, etc. If anything, many of them actually gave me the creep. They kinda freaked me out. If I should answer if they evoke any emotion, then they kinda evoked the scared sad emotion in me and the little girl me might have nightmares from them. Not that they are scary or anything, though there were some displays in which I waited for Vivy to come and view it together, it's just I just had those feeling looking at them and being around them. I guess I prefer arts that can evoke happy positive feeling instead. Okay, it's getting late. So I'm just gonna post picture, okay (trying to keep the formatting from blogger). See if you can get some of these arts stuff.
Okay the first picture is not part of the exhibition. Just thought it's a very good picture of the window, and behind you can see the red and yellow seats for the F1 races. I think these seats cost a bomb.
This piece is from a Singaporean artist. It's actually very big, covering a big wall, and the artist used paints to come out with this. The guide was very cheerful and friendly when she was explaining to us about the arts. She said she's been there for awhile, I guess the arts got into her head. Seriously though, she was really nice. 
This is a floating book, a philosophical book floating in an aquarium. Looking at the picture I took, it kinda reminded me of the jellyfish pictures in my collection. A bit reminded me of Harry Potter too. The description of this piece in the guide book has the words globalization, ideological history, modern civilization, materialistic and spiritual viewpoints in them. Alright, how it gets to there is open to your interpretation. 
These ones are from Iranian artists. I love the humor in it.
This one is part of the pieces from Indonesian artists. Their exhibition was in a room, where there are this piece on the wall and a music video at the other wall.
The next few, I like. They are cut out of flowers being placed on sands. I chose this first one because the colour came out great though the flowers on the front blurred the ones behind.
One side of the flowers were colourful and the other side were black. So it's really 2 extreme sides. This is the view from the other side. 
And this is from the flowers' side views. You can see Vivy in the picture actually.
This piece on the wall is in the same room as the flowers. Nothing really special about it, but I chose to put this in because in this picture, the car and the boy looked rather 3D towards you when they were actually carved inside (I can't explain it well).
This is one of the many video pieces. I really don't get them all actually, but somehow this ... well it gave me mixed feeling. Solitude is one of them.
This is a knitted lamp. The pieces accompanying this were all knitted. There was a toucan bird on a vespa. You tell me what that means.
These are stacks of things which you can find in your house also I suppose. I guess being able to stack your things neatly is a form of art?
Just a hall being painted this way. Kinda cool I suppose.
The artist for this one is from Vietnam. It's called The Dancer. The head, hands, and feet of the dancer is actually separated from the body, hence you saw all the ropes. The cool thing about it I think is because you can see Vietnam traces in the art, for example in the decoration on the dress of the dancer.
This one I kinda like. A series of pictures of a man with a crescent moon. I found it to be cute and quite comforting. You can perhaps feel disturbed for such childish imagination on an adult, but I dig it.
Last one, this one is on the South Beach ground. I suppose the text is just calling out to you. Though I think the line is something you can commonly find in a T-shirt.
Okay that's all folks. Err...do go if you've got nothing to do? Ticket price is S$10.
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
Not really sure if that is a real word, maybe I should just say sono stanca morta, aarrgghh. Not having my usual Saturday nap, so the head is really rather heavy now. I guess I just had such a difficult day physically yesterday. Was having a rather heavy flu in the morning. Any other day, I would have taken myself straight back to bed but I had things to clear and so I stayed on. Drank panadol cold (I think it was left over from Vinny), and perhaps my breakfast wasn't substantial enough that the tummy felt really weird afterwards and I had difficulty keeping lunch down. I managed to do a few stuffs and still met Vivy for dinner to pass her some things. Went home rather late, and I stayed up until quite late as well.Had difficulty waking up this morning that I was pretty late for class. I guess everyone was having a difficult morning. I arrived a few seconds after Q and she was the first one to arrive actually, at around 20 minutes late. She forgot her wallet today. Rae was later than us. Then A.Nobre dragged his sick body in. Everyone were pretty much trying hard to just get through the class. I really miss bigger class. Smaller class just lack the enthusiasm. But I told A.Nobre that I'll continue if they need the number, because actually I don't feel like continuing next term.
Anyway, did have kiwi today as instructed by MarChe yesterday. It was sweet and I really liked it. In fact my carrot tomato juice today also tasted supreme. The carrots were good, they were sweet. Met up with Vivy and Aron for lunch to discuss our financial situation. Very heavy lunch, kinda very bad for the heart. At least they were pretty good though. We had padang food today and I do need my Indonesian food. Currently I feel, the easiest way to comfort me is to give me some nice Indonesian food.
On other news, Rista apparently is not gonna be able to transit here for a long time, she couldn't get the flight. So sadly I wouldn't be able to meet her. However, my good friend, Emilia, will be in town next week with the future in laws. I hope I can see her. The last time she was here, I had fever. If I had known that these people are able to make it in town at this period, I would pitch to watch the F1 races. Oh well ...
Been trying to sort out my life and try a few things. I've been letting my life to go on as is without driving it. I let it run itself and then I wonder and complain miserably why things do not go as I want it to be. So I am making small steps. Apparently small steps need me to walk more outside my comfort zone. Not really what I am hoping for or actually want for that matter but I just feel I have to see what the other options are. On that note, I've also been making an effort to pray to God, actual effort. Seriously I haven't been really making any effort at all all these times, so now I try to make that time to say my prayer and what I want clearly. All are baby steps. I don't even know if I can keep it up but who knows, things may change, I may change and perhaps I wouldn't be so sad anymore and people will be less worried of me.
I'm biting my tongue on things that I feel like saying (writing) out loud *sigh*
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