Saturday, August 29, 2009
Spent the day as a tourist today and went to Jurong Bird Park. See I got this Saturday off and some vouchers from the NDP preview that I attended. One of the vouchers was 50% off to Jurong Bird Park. Since it's quite near to where I am living and it's expiring at the end of this month, I decided to use it. Oh yeah, can I just say that this day has been quite liberating. Last night I was able to sleep without setting the alarm clock. It was really really nice to be able to sleep for as long as I want. Felt really lazy to get out of bed that in the end I finally mustered myself to get up at 10:30 am :P Since I had decided to go there alone, I was just taking my own sweet time of leaving my room, having breakfast, and making my way there. I love freedom!!!Speaking of Jurong Bird Park, this is only my 2nd time there. I've been to several other Singapore tourist attractions for quite a few times however somehow it took me a long time to go to Jurong Bird Park. The first time was last year, in August as well, when my dear friend, Dewi, was in town. That was like after 8 years of me living in Singapore. Today I realized that there were some parts that we didn't go in last time. I was surprised that there are parts of the park that I don't know about :P It happened to be sunny today in Singapore so it's hot. I'm not liking the heat much but I know I complain as well when it rains all day and it gets cold and there's no sun. I know I am difficult.
Alrighty, if you want to see birds pictures, you can see them here. I love the colours of the birds. Nobody else can do colours as amazing as God. Anyway, these fews are not in the flickr set. Look at this penguin. I watched Happy Feet so when I saw this penguin standing like this looking at an empty wall, I couldn't help feeling if it's drugged :(
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Vorrei Essere La Persona Che Dice Addio
Ciao peeps. The title of the post is my best attempt to say, "I want to be the person who says goodbye" in Italian. I don't know if it's grammartically right though. Haven't been blogging for a long time. There are reasons for it. I was just really occupied. So what has been happening, let me do this in points. It's been awhile since we do things in points.1. Last week was tough. Linguistically tough. In more ways than one. On one thing, I failed. I don't like failure but I just couldn't make things work. To my defence, maybe it cannot be done *sigh* On other thing, I think I will pass. I don't think I did to the best of my potential but somehow I just lost the drive. Maybe I studied too much and got so tired about it all. Anyway some things are beyond my power. Still waiting for the results. So that pretty much what occupied the whole of my last week.
2. Went to watch G.I. Joe yesterday. Well I actually found it pretty entertaining for the first half. I thought it was really cool and the guys were great :P However, I kinda lost my attention towards the climax of the movie. The ending was kinda a let down. It's kinda like they quickly wrapped things up since they were running out of time and perhaps money since they blew up so many things that the ending didn't feel as glorious as the build up to it. Maybe like Harry Potter movies, they are banking on sequels, but I feel it's quite unfair. People expect to see a good ending and yet when things are ended quickly without much fanfare, it's really such a disappointment.
3. A news to share. Schmap chose a picture from my Italy trip for their guides. What is Schmap? Well, from wikipedia: Schmap is the publisher of free digital travel guides for destinations throughout Europe and the USA, as well as Canada, Australia and New Zealand. So they shortlisted 3 of my pictures of Rome, Florence, and Venice. So far I got news that one of the picture will be featured in the Rome guide. So if you ever gonna travel to Rome and need direction and stuff, you can download Schmap digital guide into your iphone (which ironically I don't have). The guide has maps, information about the place, and pictures taken by tourists. Well, I suppose it is not a big deal since they chose a lot of pictures from many people, but somehow I feel kinda flattered :P If you are wondering which picture for Rome that they chose, you can see it here.
4. Finished reading Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet. It's really a wise book. Next reading will be this Italian book I got in Florence, which I actually forget what the title is. I hope my Italian can help me get through 75% of it. Speaking of Italy, can you believe that since I came back from my trip in June, I haven't gone through and sorted out all the little mementos, like booking print outs, museums tickets, train tickets, and things like that. I guess, I just don't want to put the finality in the whole experience. Somehow going through those things, setting them aside even though it's for safekeeping and documentation of my life, just feels so hard for me. I'm never good at letting go. I have to do it but I am still procrastinating.
My mother just sent me an sms telling me that my cousins' dad passed away. He didn't wake up this morning. There are many ways people die but if I have to remember people I know or people related to the people I know who died, they all died kinda unexpectedly. Not that they died in a bad way. Like my uncle, it seemed like he died in his sleep, so it's pretty peaceful. It just they weren't sick. If I list how some people I know died, it will be because of an accident, heart attack during morning walk / jogging, stroke, and so it's very very unexpected. So I guess what I want to say is, tell the people you care about that you love them. Look at them clearly when you see them, because you really might never gonna see them alive again. Sigh.
I gotta stop guys because if not I'm gonna drag you again in my depression. Take care okay.
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Monday, August 10, 2009
Went to watch Up today with Vivy. Maybe I'm really just an emotional wreck right now that I actually cried quite a lot during this movie especially during the first part. Was a bit teary eyed again when I was reading about this movie just now, how the people from Disney and Pixar fulfilled a dying girl's wish to watch this movie. The girl died 7 hours after watching the movie. Very very touching and sad.Anyway Up was good. Watched it in 3D but didn't find the 3D part to be impressive. I wonder if it's because of the cinema though *sigh* Anyway, as I said the movie was good. Watching the trailer I thought one of the main characters, the grandpa is just a grumpy old man, but his background story was very very nice and touching. Cried a lot on this part :P When I was watching the movie, I was thinking how the boy's eyes, Russell, were kinda Asian. After reading about the movie, I found out that he is Asian American! Somehow for me he doesn't appear so, except for the eyes. He is seriously one adorable boy. Grandpa Carl does look grumpy but he is loveable too. I thought the story was nice. Love the animation. I just love all the colours! I also love the music. Very very good movie. Go and watch it peeps.
Oh I have to add that I also like the short animation that accompanied this movie. Partly Cloud is shown before Up and it's also another very nice story. Somehow it's telling me that your task, your call of duty maybe as sucky as hell and yet you do have to do your task because I don't know. You have to? That it is what you are suppose to do. The bird got hurt a lot in his call of duty and his job is not as nice as his friends but at the end of the day he's still doing it because he knows that he has too.
As much as I am trying to find comfort in that, I still cannot really do so. Yesterday I think I may have made someone more depressed than he's already been and he agreed with me that I made him sadder *sigh* Seriously, I wish I can say things will be alright, things will get better, but at this point in time in my life, this particular moment, I can't honestly say that. I'm not seeing the light and I cannot tell anyone that there is a light. Maybe all you have is a tunnel *sigh* I really don't want to do tomorrow :'(
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Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Went to watch The Hangover yesterday. Una Notte da Leoni is the Italian title for the movie. Saw the trailer of this movie quite a lot when I was in Rome. By the way, everything in Italy is dubbed in Italian! TV shows and even movies in the cinema. It's like way worse than Indonesia. In Indonesia, I started to come to terms watching Spongebob Squarepants in Indonesian. I will go crazy if everything are dubbed in Indonesian. I don't understand why they do it though. I really think my English is not bad because I watched a lot of american movies and tv series growing up. Sesame Street was so helpful. So right now I get so disappointed and frustrated watching dubbed things. It was kinda hard in Italy for me, I had to like concentrate extra hard to follow the conversation. I think after 10 minutes my brain just gave up.Anyway The Hangover is HILARIOUS!!! I thought I wouldn't enjoy it much because I thought it would be like a real wild guy movie, especially with the theme of bachelor party in Vegas going completely mad. However the wildest part about it was only during the closing credits. The movie was just really really crazily funny. I totally enjoyed it and would totally recommend it!!! I had great fun watching it.
Wanna talk about Bradley Cooper for awhile. He's like totally hot! My God!!! I think I first saw him in Alias. Didn't recall him to be particularly appealing but in his recent movies, he's just totally handsome!!! There's a scene in the movie when the boys were getting ready to go out and he was wearing a black suit. My God!!! He's totally totally handsome!!! I think he kinda had the best part. Him being so playful and yet at the end of the movie, it's revealed that he's actually married and he seemed to be so devoted to his wife and son. I guess all the girls just went "aaawwww". Yeah, I am so superficial to be attracted in physical appearance but well, I can't help it :P So peeps, yes there are a lot of movies to watch but put Una Notte da Leoni in your list! By the way, I don't get why the Italian title is Una Notte da Leoni. I'm particulary confused on why the preposition is 'da' *sigh*
Anyways, not having a good day today. Was telling Vinny, I wish I can just stop. Actually I want the whole world to stop moving. Darn, I have so many things to do. Ciao peeps!
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Sunday, August 02, 2009
Went to the Singapore National Day Parade preview yesterday with la Gioia, courtesy of LC who didn't want to use the tickets. I kinda had a good experience. Obviously there were some lame parts as all NDP has had however some of the other parts were quite entertaining. I do wonder if it's because I watched it there live so it was more exciting than watching it on TV. I thought some of the things they did were interesting, there were some new things going on, so I think their creative team is really good this year. The most suprising part for me was the fact that they have dancers on striptease poles. Granted that they didn't strip but I thought it was quite daring of them to try this. I also liked it when Electrico perfomed. Local music is not really something which is flourishing here in Singapore. I even wonder if la Gioia knows Electrico before yesterday. Anyway, I thought this year theme song is really really good. It's definitely different from all the songs I have heard in the past. Pictures are here. Many of the pictures turned out not so good actually *sigh*
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
Been wanting to write this entry since yesterday but something is kinda wrong with my browsers (I think that's where the problem is though it happened in IE, firefox, and google chrome) that when I viewed the create post page in Blogger, it just didn't work properly. Anyway ...Went to watch Hors de Prix or Priceless as it is called in English last Tuesday. Had a free ticket which can be used for 2 people. I didn't feel like asking anyone. Been feeling quite anti social for some time now. Perhaps it could also be because lately somehow when I asked people, I was rejected! As a matter of fact, I did ask someone to watch this with me, but I was rejected vilely, with excuses like "I have to check my schedule", "I might be busy", "Why don't you ask someone who will be more interested?" Shouldn't one just be honored that one is asked and kindly oblige this person who perhaps has other people to ask and yet choose you? Wow, apparently I can still feel pretty upset about it even after quite some time. Anywho, so I didn't want to ask anyone, so I told Yeni that she could use my plus one for her friends. I thought she would be bringing some people but apparently her people bailed out on her. So it was just me and her and Maureen and her friend. Even the people who initiated this didn't seem to come, silly people!
Nonetheless, we enjoyed the movie. Audrey Tautou was in it. Man! She's so skinny! Très petite! Kinda uncomfortable for me to watch her. The movie is about sugar mommy and sugar daddy and the girl and boy inside this type of relationship. The boy fell for the girl and the girl realized her love for him at the climax of the movie. So basically this comedy is easy to digest. I enjoyed it very much and laughed a lot. After it, I realized I hadn't been laughing whole heartedly for some time. It was really funny. When the sugar mommy gave the lead guy a 30,000 euro watch, you kinda can't help feeling that it is nice to have a sugar mommy :P It's like S$60,000 for God sake! As the guy said it's not a watch, it's a treasure chest and as Yeni said, it can be used as a downpayment for a condo :D I like the guy by the way. He made me smitten :P Yeni and Maureen said he had this dumb look in him that they didn't like. In Indonesian, the word to describe his look is "polos". In English, I think it's "gullible". Either way, I just like seeing this innocent and in loved guy :P
How's life Eka? Well I don't think I am doing good. Provo di potere dire "me la cavo" ma in realtà non posso fare questo :( I am having a bad feeling and some of it has manifested itself. I wonder if it will get worse. I am trying to tell myself to brace for impact, however I know even if I have sensed it coming, I will still be heartbroken and cry. Christ! Maybe I just need a good cry. Haven't been crying for a long time. Maybe I just need to let out my sadness and negativity. Haven't been crying, haven't been laughing. You think my life is in balance, apparently not so *sigh*
In the topic of being alone. Was around in the Merlion Park area last Friday. Alone! What can you do about it right? Took some pictures there, which you can see here. There were the proper ones like this typical postcard picture of Singapore.
Anyway, did make it to Carl's Gatti Del Mondo Exhibition. The exhbition is closed now, so I cannot really advertise. Some of the pictures were really amazing considering how hard it is to be able to snap your camera at the right moment. There were some nice cats' expressions and some of the places were really nice as well. Alrighty, gotta go. Can we don't do tomorrow? *sigh*
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Hello peeps. Went to watch Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince today with La Gioia and L. Casryn was supposed to join us and I even had booked for the 4 of us but she canceled yesterday. It was actually quite hard to get Harry Potter movie tickets since it opened this week. I made the booking on Tuesday and even then, it was difficult to get the tickets because most cinemas were almost full. We actually wanted to watch it on Friday night but in the end had to settle for today. I tried to offer the extra ticket to some people and noone was able to make it. I was really frustrated and dumbfounded that here I was with a sought after ticket and yet noone wanted it. Shocked! So today when I collected my ticket, I just for the sake of asking asked if I could cancel 1 of the ticket. I didn't have any hope of succeeding. I actually asked after he had printed the tickets. However, the guy at the counter nicely asked his supervisor and lo and behold, I was allowed to do so and he returned me S$10 cash. I was so happy. I have to say I have had many good experiences with the Golden Village cinemas, they have always been most accommodating :)So about the movie. I actually like it very much. I have to say that I didn't re-read the book again before going to the movie and so I think I forget many details and as such perhaps this is the reason why I wasn't so critical. I think it followed some of the things in the book nicely. I thought all the actors were great. Normally I would say I love Ron Weasley the most but this time around I love Tom Felton's Draco Malfoy. His character is actually one the characters that I quite sympathize in the book. I thought he did really well. I thought Daniel Radcliffe's acting as Harry Potter is better. I quite like him here. I think he's lucky to have the Felix Felicis' scene because with it, we could see a different side of him, a more relaxed one. I was kinda happy too to see Hermione's scene in which it showed her having bushy hair after failing to beat Harry in potion, kinda love to see that side of Hermione. I also related to her a lot when she was so sad when she saw Ron snogging with Lavender. Even though I know it's written in the story, I was still kinda in disbelief that Ron did that, I guess guys can just snog any girl :( Then I thought Dumbledore's fight scene against the inferi was very cool, fitting for the great wizard Dumbledore. His dead scene, though not all the same as the book, was quite touching that I had a bit of tear even though I didn't cry when I read it in the book.
What else to comment on? Well I guess there are some characters that appeared so little in the movie but I guess it's pretty difficult to squeeze everything in. Well if I have to be more critical and in retrospect, I guess for a movie entitled The Half Blood Prince, I wonder if the Half Blood Prince part of the movie is explained well for people who do not read the book. It is actually quite important considering that Snape plays a very important role in the whole Harry Potter story. Perhaps the climax of this movie, of Dumbledore dying and of Snape revealing himself wasn't as strong as it could be. If you read the book, your heart will sink when Snape killed Dumbledore and when Snape revealed that he's the half blood prince but in the movie I don't think you really get that feeling. Overall though I think the movie is good. I think I watched all Potter's movies at least twice so I wonder if I will watch this one again, maybe I will watch the 3D version if it's released in Singapore :P
On other news, I guess everyone has heard about the bombing news in Jakarta. It totally pissed me off. I'm quite affected by it, I got quite angry I have to say. What the Fuck?!? is what I wanted to scream. It's like it's only a week ago that I wrote Indonesia is looking not so bad and yet this stupid thing happened? Everyone is quite in disbelief. Stupid freaking terrorists. What the hell do they hope to achieve with this? Freaking idiots!!! See even writing about this still can make me quite upset :(
Okay, lighter note. On today's poems reading there were a lot of sky, moon, sun, and rainbow that I found my poem to be quite ordinary :( It was really difficult to make this poem. I guess it's because my knowledge is so limited and (I really cannot deny this) I do kinda take things seriously, so it was really hard to put my poem into its final version because it is not what I feel. In fact I had tried to change the last line but after reading them to Chloe and Maxime, they said I have to stick to the more romantic one. Maxime seemed to have strong opinion on how the last line should better be :P Chloe on the other hand found the whole poem to be strange. Kids, I say :P Then Mademoiselle Margie helped me choose better words and I do have to say that the final version as cheesy as it is (it is really cheesy!!!), it is kinda very very sweet. Iirggh, saccharine sweet is really not what I am feeling right now so I am really really deeply struggling with it. Here you go though.
Avec toi c'est la lune dans le ciel
Et après la pluie c'est l'arc-en-ciel
Tu es comme le soleil pour moi
Et mon chéri, mon cœur est pour toi
Compare this with the italian poem that I wrote in my last Italian class. You see that one had a skill of almost 3 years and the feeling involved in writing that flowed more easily and willingly. Anyways, I was thinking that the french poem above will still rhyme in Italian, così eccola.
Con te c'e la luna nel cielo
E dopo piove c'e l'arcobaleno
Tu sei come il sole per me
E caro mio, il mio cuore è per te
Buonanotte my darlings!
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Friday, July 10, 2009
Hey peeps. I'm quite sleepy now.Went to Pulau Ubin today with the peeps as planned. My butt hurts so much because of the cycling and I was thinking that I'm darker again. On my left hand, there's a white area which didn't get tanned from all the sun because it's always covered by my watch. There's an extreme difference when I came back from Italy and now the difference is more (I think). When I look at it, I just couldn't believe that I was ever that fair. Whenever I go home, my mom and many people that know me often say that I am fairer since my time in Singapore. I used to dismiss their comment but apparently I was kinda fair. Anyway, generally I am not liking much this new dark skin that I have, so I really wish everything will be in balance again soon.
Ooops, I have been talking about other thing but the trip. The trip there with the boat was okay. There were 10 of us by the way. Rented the bicycles, however some of us decided to walk, since they were a bit unsure with the bicycles. I cycled and I have to say that I was quite shaky since it's been like 9 years ago since I cycled. However, I love it so much! Love cycling!!! Though the butt is hurting so much right now, but cycling is really fun. I was thinking, this is kinda the type of outdoor activity that I like :P Went to Chek Jawa but obviously since we were late, the tide is high and we can't really see any interesting living things. We ended up walking through the board walk and then had whatever food we had with us on one of the shelter. Then the cloud was darkening that we decided to just go back. However when we reached the place where we parked our bicycles, the rain started to pour. Auntie A and L were already walking ahead despite of the rain. The people who were cycling decided to just wait at the shelter with la Gioia who was actually walking. However she ended up being the luckiest because after waiting some time, there was a white van which seemed to be picking some tourists and she hitched a ride for S$ 2. So she got dry and an easy ride. Us who cycled decided to continue on when the rain was getting lighter. Somewhere along the way, there's just something terribly wrong with my bicycle that I couldn't pedal :( The guys tried to solve it but they couldn't. Mr. RH being the always gentleman and proper one switched his bicycle to mine. I felt rather bad. The good thing was, there were a lot of down slopes so he could just slide along. All in all, we all reached the meeting point safely. It was quite a nice experience except for the weather :( Will I want to go again? Yes, to cycle :P
Now, I am tired. Should be sleeping early today so that I can be on time tomorrow. My butt really hurts. Sigh. Not really gonna post much picture because there's nothing really that I love a lot. However if you wanna see some pictures, you can go here. I'm just gonna post this one. I think Casryn was pointing on how she liked this tree. I kinda found it ironic, that it's so dry and yet it's in the middle of so much water.
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Outwit. Outspy. Outsmart. Outplay. Then Get Out.
'ello guys. Not supposed to be doing this right now but due to unforeseen situation, I kinda can do this right now. The title of the post, which is very very interesting, comes from the movie Duplicity which I watched last night. Went to watch it alone because I kinda want to be alone. Almost didn't want to watch it actually, because yesterday was kinda cold because of the rain, and I was tired, but read that they did some shoots in Rome and as such I changed my mind :P Some of the scenes in Rome happened in front of the Pantheon. Kinda felt good that I recognized that :PAnyway, the movie was okay I suppose. I kinda didn't like the ending so for me it kinda spoiled the whole thing. I do love Clive Owen a lot :P I wonder if I saw him in real life, as a normal guy, would I be attracted to him? Hmmm. Julia Roberts was pretty, it's been awhile since I last saw her on the screen. She looks not so skinny, normal human shape actually. It does bother me to notice and feel that she's not skinny. She's normal and normal is okay. I have to say that Paul Giamatti was very entertaining :D He's funny! I can't really say I like the movie very very much. It wasn't bad, that's all I can say.
Gonna go to Pulau Ubin this Friday with the team. I am so excited about it!!! This is my first time going there and I am happy that I finally get to cross this from my Singapore list. Need to pray for good weather though. I really hope it's not gonna rain because that would be a huge disappointment for me. We're gonna see the Da Vinci exhibition instead if it rains :( I am so looking forward to cycle again. The last time I rode a bicycle is I think when I was in my 1st year in NUS, when we did night cycling. Hmmm ... suddenly, I got reminded of this senior that my ex-roommate, Stella, had a crush on. He fell and that was funny! I still have a smile in me now remembering that :P Oh yeah, talking about Singapore list. I didn't get NDP tickets, aarrrgghh ... so this is something that I cannot cross. I have to stay at least another year? That is so not cool!
On other news, well, nothing much. Last Friday, had dinner with Carl, Q, and Dr. A. Was pleasantly suprised to see Q and her big tummy :P Then, I had a ... well I don't know what adjective to use, if I use 'bad', it will be too harsh. Perhaps 'real' is the correct adjective however to say I had a 'real' Saturday night doesn't really make much sense. This is the point where I wonder if I should continue writing in English *sigh*
I guess we always see 'us' differently and perhaps each has different expectation of the others, expectation that we know will never be fulfilled. As much as perhaps one tries to define 'us' simply and lightly, I think it will always be complicated for me. I realize (and this is perhaps thanks to Italy) that whatever sentiments that I had or have, it's not so hard on the soul anymore. I am somehow lighter though one perhaps may argue that I am still uptight. As much as I think I still care quite a lot, I also realize that I don't care as well. The 'me' months and months and months ago would have wished to have this kinda feeling back then but I guess you just couldn't rush things, things will happen when they're ready to happen. I can't help feeling that perhaps this is a sign that I am ready for other things, new things, and of course like a fool, I am so anxious to see these new things. Then when it actually never happens, I'm just gonna be depressed :P See, I guess, deep down, the half-empty-glass in me will never be erased :P
Enough about that. Today is Indonesia Presidential Election day. Voted and mailed my vote yesterday. Apparently in Jakarta (at least), if you showed your inked finger (you need to put one of your finger in ink after voting) in Starbucks, you can get free drink. I love that it's like that in Indonesia. I also like and envious with the fact that it's public holiday there *sigh* Anywho, quick count results show that it's as the polls have been showing all along. I hope that's how the final and official result goes and no funny business going on. Considering so many things that have been happening in South East Asia for the last year or so, Indonesia is actually looking not so bad right now. I still think it will take a long time for Indonesia to progress and improve tremendously, but I guess because it's Indonesia after all. We are laid back and you know at a certain point, I guess you have to be like that. You gotta relax and calm down a bit, a trait which I don't really have right now. Yes, I am high-strung, and yes perhaps all the time *sigh* Okay, enough for now. Take care peeps!
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Olla guys. Went to watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen with la Gioia yesterday. All the reviews said that this movie is bad but I actually was well entertained by it. Can I just say that I love Shia LaBeouf? :P Yeah, I like this type of guys. Anyways back to the movie, yes, there were some lame stuff but it wasn't all that bad. They were bearable. Yeah, the humans didn't really have much role except for the running around and freaking out but I had such a good laugh with them, especially the new character, Leo. It's good that I can laugh out loud :D The whole effects were really cool, I have to say. All the explosion and stuffs were kinda colossal. I hope they had much fun doing it, because it looked so cool and it seemed like lotsa fun to do all the explosion. Did some reading on the movie and found out that they could take days just to render 1 frame with the transformers in it. It's kinda crazy and also shows how much hardwork and patience are needed to make this movie. Amazingly cool. I felt that I actually had a better experience on this second movie that the first one.On other news, well there's nothing interesting to say actually. Finished my last Friday session last week and so no more long Fridays from now on, instead I have early morning Saturday routine. It's gonna be tougher compared to when I had my Italian classes but I am committed :P I really need to work harder though. It feels like I haven't been making any effort at all actually.
Been talking to people or perhaps been listening to people. Well as I said before, on some people I don't mind hearing them, on others I do wish they would stop focusing on themselves. Today, I unexpectedly had quite a long msn talk with Ms. Sab. We don't really talk much actually except for the normal salutation here and there. It's kinda interesting to know that we can actually have an interesting conversation / bitching session :P I guess it happens, doesn't it? You see a person and you have a feeling that there's nothing in common with you guys, but maybe if you start talking, you'll find that strangely you can be good friends. This kinda things do happen to me. So anyway, as I said I have been listening to people. I guess on some people, I know they really need the reassurance because they are in difficult situation so as much as I can I do try to hear them out and tell them things will work out. I don't know if I am doing the right thing though because I believe that God may not be there for you on your bad decision, however I like to think that no matter what, after we learn our lesson, God is there.
On the other side, I feel like I actually have so many things that I want to say, that I want to let off my chest and head. However, somehow when people asked me how I am, it's like they just do it for the sake of asking and don't actually have the time to stick around to hear me out *sigh* and I also don't know, it just feels that there's noone that I can feel comfortable with telling how I feel. I think again it's because perhaps they're uninterested and also perhaps they will then start advising me and those things kinda make me feel worse. I wonder how I am like when I listen to all these people that they actually come back and tell me their issues.
There are 2 people who said similar things to me today that made me kinda worried. Err ... yesterday's experience proved that I may not be sensitive at all at hints that are being dropped. So I am wondering if hints are being dropped on me too right now. Should I be worried? Arrgghh. Hmmm ... why should I, right? I'm not saying that I am in the most happy state of my life right now. However I am not extremely sad either. There's a bit of peace inside me. Somehow I feel like saying that all's well in the universe, everything is in balance. The truth is if I want to explore it, no, things are not in balance, my universe still sucks. Somehow though, somehow, what I feel is that all is well in the universe. I guess it's alright, no? It's better to be positive than negative? It's better to be smiling than crying? Not that I am smiling myself, but I guess I'm not even close to crying. So all is good? I have started reading The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran, finally!!! I have to say that he really had some wise things to say. On one of the chapter, I felt like I've been slapped by Kahlil Gibran *sigh* but Oshie found it comforting. I guess I should love more. Perhaps I should realize that I have so much love to give and it's pretty much one of the task that every human must do, to give out more love in this world. Peace out peeps! :P
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