Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Went for dinner with Starfish, La Gioia, NanSee, Gascoigne, Yen, and Lois. It was basically the same group of people with the addition of Yen. The last time we met was in January, so it is around 3 months later that we convene again. Dinner was basically (my personal reason) to give Starfish's his birthday present which I had had since Chinese New Year and I suppose it's good to meet everyone else as well and give salutation (I'm in a mood to write in poetic English, though I wonder how poetic I can be).Starfish's present was a batik painting which I bought in Soekarno-Hatta airport. I bought 2, the other one would be for Dagi. I was right to say that not many people would appreciate it because Gascoigne was dumbfounded seeing it, wondering what it was, and what purpose it can serve. Typical him. I was rather disappointed that it wasn't really big, but I suppose if it's framed, it will look rather nice. Anyway it was hand painted, so I thought it was pretty cool. If I had a house of my own, I would love to have these kinda things on my wall.
Dinner was okay. It was at Fish and Co Paragon. I think I would choose Manhattan Fish instead the next time I'm in the mood for seafood. The only thing that Fish and Co has which I think is better than Manhattan Fish was the rice, because I don't fancy the garlic rice that Manhattan Fish serves, though I know people like la Gioia is a fan. Then we had desserts at Swensens because I needed to eat more. I've decided that the next time I go to Swensens, I will try the sticky chewy chocolate. I think I have enough of coit tower. I think conversations went crazier in Swensens
Topic of last night was mainly relationship and love and such. I suppose I was pretty bad for bursting the balloon (is there such analogy?) of news that Starfish was perhaps not willing to share just yet. But Eka just started with her unkind interrogation and now everyone saw the picture
Anyway, with all the talk yesterday, I realize that I was heartbroken and still am heartbroken. The one who broke my heart was actually me myself but no matter what, logically I cannot deny that it was a necessary move. "Going with the flow" was just not working for me. Anyway the point is, it still hurts *sigh* Sent an email to Vivy today and her answers was that I am perhaps one of those people who need a "new thing" to get me over with this, which is exactly the thing that I don't want to happen. I just wish this could eradicate itself. I am perhaps not trigger happy in my life, but at least I don't want to be sad and I'm kinda sad right now *sigh*.
Kinda miss the Mr. Miss getting and reading those long mails, but I myself don't have time to write long mails to him. When it started, he had already given me his objection and I suppose it's my fault, I eluded myself. I know what he will say, "flush!".
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Sunday, April 13, 2008
Street Kings + Driving Lessons
Is it just me or the weather is weird these days and you get sick easily? I have been on drugs on and off for the past 3 weeks and I suppose it will continue because I've been sneezing often these days. Anyway, let's talk about usual stuffs now. Movies.Went to watch Street Kings with la Gioia yesterday. Actually I wasn't that interested in the movie, even though there's Keanu Reeves in it. I just wasn't in the mood for action movies. But la Gioia said she wanted to watch something, and suddenly Keanu Reeves seemed appealing again, so I chose to watch Street Kings. I only found it to be so-so though. Maybe I was tired but I was very very sleepy during the movie and was hoping that it would end quickly. The story was basically about bad cops and Keanu played this wild-on-his-own cop who apparently didn't know what's really going on around him. I found him to be fatter in this movie but I can still fall for Keanu Reeves. A lot of cursing in the movie and it's kinda hard to understand what these Americans are saying and these things really didn't help to get me more interested in the movie. The actors were okay, I suppose. Forest Whitaker reminded me of the manic him in The Last King of Scotland. Maybe because he played another evil character. Overall it was just alright for me. I'm not too excited about it.
Had a huge banana split after the movie and I do wonder why I just don't care about the things that I eat. I eat, I eat, and I eat. One of these days, I'm totally gonna regret doing this.
Arrived in my room at 6 plus yesterday. Was very sleepy and did manage to do a few stuff. Not as complete as I would have liked it, but in between counseling and small talk, I think I did okay. At least a major part was completed. Called home 'cause it's been a while since I talked to mom. Miss home much. Talked to my cousin just now and I really miss all the the things that I miss by being here. You really can't have it all in life.
Watched Driving Lessons later during the night and I have to write this because it was really really good. I first heard about this movie, when me and Vivy was in The Cathay watching something, perhaps Magorium. Didn't manage to watch it last year because as I recall its release date was the same day as when I was going home. Didn't really hear much about the movie after that. We thought it was just gone and done, but a quick look in IMDB just now showed that the release date for Singapore is 24 April 2008. I don't know if it's true, but if it is, go and watch it peeps. Vivy being the amazing her managed to get this movie and I'm glad she did.
Driving Lessons is a British movie, starring Rupert Grint (Ron Weasley in Harry Potter), Laura Linney (if you watch movies a lot, you will know her), and I have to mention Julie Walters (who apparently played Ron Weasley's mom in Harry Potter). I have to mention those 3 people, because they are really the force behind the movie. The story told about Rupert's character Ben, who is a son of a priest who had a mother (Laura Linney's character) who tried to keep a good and perfect facade all the time (think of Bree in Desperate Housewives peeps). Being brought up in such a Christian family with a very demanding mother, Ben did turn out a bit weird. I suppose because choices and freedom to explore were never given to him and his mother was very very strict in her reign that even his kind and understanding father couldn't fight much. Ben then found a job as an assistant to an old actress, ironically it was because his mom asked him to find a job so that he could use the money to help a bum living in their house. The old actress (Julie Walters) with her antics really forced Ben to get out of his shell and be crazy for a while. It really opened him out as he tried drinking for the first time, driving without license, kissing a girl, and losing his virginity (which kinda bothered me a bit)
The actors themselves were great. I've always liked Rupert Grint the most in Harry Potter. I thought he was great there and I thought he was really really good in this movie. I thought his portrayal of the simple, humble, soft and kind-hearted Ben to be stellar. You would really fall for Ben. He really exuded the nice boy persona. Maybe I should ask Vivy to get December Boys so that we can compare how good he and Daniel Radcliffe are outside Potter. I have a feeling Rupert is much better. Laura Linney was good. She reminded me of her character in The Nanny Diaries. Then Julie Walters was great. Watching her in Potter you can't really tell that she was a great actress but she was. Amazing actress. So peeps, if you get the chance to watch it, go and give this movie a watch.
On life, well life has been tiring for me. I wish I could sleep better. I don't sleep well except during weekends and so I get cranky and tired and headaches a lot during the week days. My weekend is good because I got to relax and sleep well and be alone without anyone to bother me. People do bother me sometime but that's also because they have problems. So I guess everyone's life, or at least many that I know, are not that rosy either (except for Rista who is having the time of her life) *sigh* I miss home much. I miss eating nice food and talking to people about other things and enjoying Indonesian stuff. Friday night, I had a nice-of-no-importance talk with Rista, while watching some Indonesian tv and I like that. I like the fact that I could tell her certain stuff which I couldn't tell anyone else. Perhaps I could but I guess they wouldn't understand and somehow whether you understand or not come with your life experience and I don't really know many people with similar life experience as mine. Vivy fits in many things but on some things we also go through different things, for example: the dynamic of our days are quite different. Anyway, I should stop about talking about me because this week I realize that many people are having it harder. Off the bat, I can mention 3 people with difficult things to deal with right now. I wish them all the best. Some of them will have their misery sorted out soon, some will take some time. I really wish them all the best and I hope I could be there as much as they need me to. Good night my darlings!
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Saturday, April 05, 2008
Was working on a new blog skin because apparently the dolphin picture is (perhaps) corrupted. So in some places it cannot be displayed correctly though my vaio is displaying it just fine. Anyway, working on a new page design apparently takes a lot of work even though it is only 1 page but I suppose because I sucks in designing, so I take ages. So I don't know when it's going to be up (if ever).This week has not been smooth sailing as well. I don't want to talk about it much. Been spending much money because of the stress. On Monday, I dragged la Gioia to Swensens because I wanted the omelette and coit tower (I may sound like a pregnant girl, ya?). She kindly obliged. I guess I will do no good if I am too stressed out, so she's just helping me to ease out a bit. Then today I went for a movie, lunch, and (very expensive) desserts with Vivy. I really really need to spend less. I don't have much money
Anyways, movie today was Charlie Bartlett, which I really really enjoyed. It told the story of this rich boy who went to a public school after being kicked out (apparently many times) from a private rich school for (legal) misdemeanor. So he basically wanted to be cool and popular and he made it by acting as a shrink to the kids in school. He himself has a shrink on call, whom he used to get all the medication he needed to give to the kids. Somehow it's always the case, you just can't be cool by being simple, smart, and nice, you just have to be something more. Charlie was such a character. He's actually a harmless, decent, and normal guy. I just got to thinking that many people seem so ordinary but all you need is to talk to them and you'll find the the uniqueness of them, and how each of them has something special. All the characters inside the movie had something deeper going on inside them apart from the facade that they were wearing, the labels that people gave them on first glance. It's nice to see how all the characters were being explored as the movie progressed, for example Charlie's "business partner", Murphy, whom I thought to be quite handsome after looking at him many times
Okay, I have some things that I want to write about, thoughts that float in and out but very likely would never get written. I should be more productive in my writing I suppose. I don't know, perhaps I have a really poor time management that I can't seem to get the time to do many things that I should be doing
[Added Sunday: 10:04 pm]
So finished the design. Started blogging in 2003 and it's around 5 years later that I changed the design *sigh* Yes, that's a sign of me being lazy but that's also a sign that I cannot part with things. Things have to change, people have to move on. The only thing which is constant in this world is change and yet I don't like change much, no matter how much I try to deny it. So fast forward 5 years from when I started the blog, I suppose I am better on certain things. Perhaps on design? Definitely on CSS and page layout. However with more things you know, you realize that there's a whole universe out there which is unknown to you and at times that feels rather frustrating because yes, so many things I don't know in this world of Internet.
Anyways, new design give less space to write. That's one thing that bothers me a lot. So I make the text smaller so that the page doesn't go longer to eternity. I hope you don't feel annoyed reading my many words. Maybe when I am ready, I get a new design which is better for the eyes. So for the time being, bear with this, and enjoy the changes. I know I have to push myself to accept this. I'm not saying the old design is better, but I am always the sentimental one and so that's why I have difficulties in letting go and moving on.
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Friday, March 28, 2008
I didn't have a good week this week. This week is the week in which I really really want to say FUCK OFF! and all the cursed words there are. Vaffanculo feels so apt. To think that this week is not even over yet. Sigh. It's not that I hate the people that I had been spending most of this week with. Seriously really. I'm sincere in all that I did and I wish them all the best. However all the answers that I have to give, all the solutions, all the things that I am expected to do are just straining me. I'm not a miracle worker. I don't walk on water. Most importantly, scientifically, in all possibility, I just cannot do ALL the things required of me. Energy, time. I have none of it all.Today I was told to smile and that I looked so unhappy. God damn it! I seriously wanted to knock that person. My God! Yeah, I looked unhappy because you told me stupid things, asked me stupid things, asked me to fix your shit and my God, how many times over and over I had saved your ass and so excuse me for getting tired of it all. I guess you wouldn't believe me then when I said I was actually sincere when I do what I do. I am.
It's just I'm very very tired. I am very very tired of having to answer and solve everything. I don't bloody have all the answers. Seriously? Are you freaking kidding me? Have you ever wondered that it took me much efforts to do what I do? It's not like I am that smart or things come to me easily. How about me with my questions? Who help me? No freaking one, because no one can. Useless idiots! I'm just tired TIRED TIRED of it all. This week I realize that at the end of the day, there's nothing that anyone can give me to make me feel better. Funny, because I thought something could, but seriously no it couldn't. You can't buy happiness. It's really true.
So this week, I have been really rebellious. I have gone off and ignore everything. I pretty much hate everyone because everyone wants something from me and so I have been pulling myself away from everyone. I don't even want to hear anyone at all. Seriously, I feel like telling Fuck off! to anyone who come to approach me and I guess some people could actually sense that. I realize that this hatred, anger, or whatever it is that you call it is so big that it manage to douse any other bad feeling that I have, including sadness. That actually makes me feel rather good.
Not that this week didn't have its share of fortune for me. Did get something good this week but no it's not enough to ease my pain. Did manage to watch a movie alone. Watched Bucket List today. I'm so happy that I got to do it alone. Love the movie so much. As much as I thought I'd figured out what the story was about, I did get some nice twist in the movie. I found the ending was quite good because I totally got my assumption at the start of the movie to be wrong. I thought Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman were great, though I thought they're just the typical them in the movie. I thought it would be more interesting if they are playing opposite roles because they would be playing something which are totally different to their typical roles. Either way, I think they were still awesome and it was really a good pairing. Because of me having to write about coffee weeks ago, I got the joke about kopi luwak early on from the beginning of the movie and I thought it was really quite hilarious. Love the whole idea of bucket list. Unfortunately I don't think I would be rich enough to see the world that I want to see, so my bucket list would have to be economical. I was thinking what would be in my bucket list. I suppose it will change as you grow older. I was thinking my number 1 would be walking with the boy I love, holding his hand, kissing him, and telling him I love him, I am happy. Yes I am a hopeless romantic, or perhaps I simply just want to be happy. I do recommend you to watch this movie because I love it much however I do can see how some people would find it too typical, simple, and almost boring. I think this is really more my type of movie.
Take care guys. I am hoping for a peaceful weekend. Better week next? I highly doubt it. I wonder if I will just drop dead there and then. I don't want it to happen though, because 2 weeks ago I realized that for now I don't want to die in Singapore and (surprisingly it came as a revelation to me) I don't want to die alone. Let me rephrase that, I don't want to die without at least 1 of my family member around me. I hope if my time is in the nearby future, God grants me that. Morbid? I am so sorry. I'm just freaking pissed off with everything right now, hence all the emotional explosion.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Went to watch Vantage Point with Vivy yesterday and my God, deep sigh. It wasn't as I expected. The movie was less than 90 minutes and amazingly the makers managed to make it feel rather long. I thought the idea was great. Seeing the trailer I thought it would be about some special agents solving the assassination of the US presidents with the help of the different points of view of the different people who were on the scene. My oh my, it's not really so. It was perhaps slightly like that, the different people in the movie did help the special agent but I feel it wasn't developed well.// ------------------- spoiler alert ----------------------------------
For one, instead of moving from one person to another and seeing what they saw in a continuous manner, we got flash backs of the different characters. So when 1 person was reaching the climax of what he saw, it was stopped and we went to 20 minutes before the incident and looking at it from another person's point of view. We counted, there were 6 times of this moving back and forth. I thought if it has been made for a tv series, it could actually be rather interesting. However for a movie, it just felt rather lame. True enough, the audiences laughed whenever we were being brought back to the flash back. It felt rather annoying at times for me, because as things are moving and gaining momentum, we had to slow down *sigh*
There were many famous actors but not all of them actually got much air time. Matthew Fox was actually a bad guy (it's kinda a bummer for me) and even him didn't really play much role. He spoke Spanish though and I felt it sounded rather weird. One of the bad guy was hot though, too bad he had to die. The ending was rather horrible for me, because the terrorist who sacrificed everything and killed everyone easily actually had some moral conscience at the climax. He swerved the ambulance he was driving to avoid hitting a little girl and with that he hit a wall, got badly injured and the president whom he was kidnapping could be saved. Aaah...movie I say, it could only happen in a movie. I think real terrorists wouldn't do something like that. When they are already committed to the mission, I think they would stop at nothing.
So yeah, that's my take. I just found that it wasn't as exciting as I hope it would be.
// --------------- end of vantage point -------------------
Life is tiring today. Another tiring day tomorrow. There's a good chance I will be so happy tomorrow or be so extremely disappointed and devastated. Me who always see the glass as half empty feel like tomorrow is not gonna be a nice one. So I feel like praying for God to give me strength and help me stay composed.
Mi manca ancora. Mi manca. Mi manca. Mi manca. Mi manca ogni giorno. Vorrei sorridere ma quando gli penso, mi manca, e sono triste
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
Happy Easter everyone. Hope you have a good holiday.I'm not having a very reflective easter this year. I guess I have strayed more and more. Feel that I am physically rather unhealthy so I've been trying to keep physical activity to the minimum and try to sleep more and better.
Did go and watch Horton Hears a Who! with Vivy yesterday and I actually like it much. Of all Dr Seuss' books movies adaptation that I have watched, How the Grinch Stole Christmas! and The Cat in the Hat, I like Horton the movie the most. I'm particularly not so fond of The Cat in the Hat. I have never read any of Dr Seuss' books, so I really had no expectation on Horton nor can I write if the movie lives up to the book. I like it because I found that the story is nice. Dr Seuss did give moral values in his story and I have to applaud him for putting rhymes in his lines, though rhymes perhaps are not the correct word to use. For more reading, go here. I think these things are great, because they are so educative and really trigger the imagination.
In terms of the actors, I think all of them did well. I think it was interesting to picture Jim Carrey as Horton, because he's always explosive on screen and Horton being the size that he is does give much limitation to how physically crazy he can be. I don't know if you get what I mean
On other news before I lie down. I've got my CELI certificato today. I'm so happy. I got a B which stands for Buono, which means good and I'm so happy about it considering I thought I'd fail. So happy so happy! Thank you God. Okay, now I need to lie down. I really need some good sleep. Before I go, let me leave you with a line from Horton, ah ... who will not fall in love with this elephant hearing him say this, "I meant what I said and I said what I meant. An elephant's faithful one hundred percent."
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Watched The Spiderwick Chronicles with la Gioia yesterday. I was pleasantly surprised and entertained by it. Actually I wasn't so excited about watching it, but I really wanted to watch something and between Horton and The Spiderwick Chronicles, la Gioia chose Spiderwick. I was slightly interested in it because of my dear boy Freddie Highmore. He was really a dear to watch and he really made me wanna watch August Rush. In Spiderwick, I actually like him more as Simon, eventhough he wasn't the main character. He was also good as Jared, but I just love the softer Simon more. The story itself wasn't bad, though there wasn't actually much variety of creatures to be seen. The ending was a bit anti climatic, but oh well, the good triumphs, what more do you expect. I still find it to be a good watch, so if you want something light, you can go and watch this one. I should say again that Freddie Highmore really has potential and I hope to see more good movies from him. Most importantly I hope he does not fall into the stupidity that many young actors experience.Was contemplating if I should write about what happened on Sunday night, but decided not to because it's rather too dramatic to say and perhaps morbid. What else there is to share? How about 1 hour ago I finished 1 pint of Ben & Jerry's Cherry Garcia in less than half an hour. Goodness me. I am that crazy. Somehow I feel so happy that I managed to do that, especially since yesterday I was quite disappointed that I couldn't eat much and in the end didn't get to have my merri-mint
Okay gotta go now peeps. There are things to do and yet I am so lazy to do them all.
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Friday, March 14, 2008
olla peeps! Happy Pi Day. If you wanna know about White Day, go to wikipedia as well okay. So today is me day also. Yours truly was born in the same day as Albert Einstein, but the brain power is so different.I have quite a good day today. Thank you all who have made my day. My dear cousin was truly a dear. My wake up sms came from her. So just like last year, she was the first one who wished me a happy birthday. So I woke up, feeling rather good, not so depressed actually. Walked out and smiled because there was sun! The sky was blue. It truly made me smile. After all the rain we've been having, God gave a sunny day today and somehow that's really the first thing that I thought of. God. Thank you God. I am maybe too tacky or think too highly of myself, but I really thought He gave this sunny day for me. Love it and I was somewhat at peace on my morning bus ride.
Then arrived at my desk, with a lil present from Yen. Love her as well. Then Lois came. Apparently the good soul Ms. J sent her my birthday present some days ago and asked her to put it on my desk so that I got a little surprise, but it didn't work that way
Anyways, so I also got some birthday sms-es from some people. 2 facebook messages from Ayu (love her, bless her) and Margie (ah, I was so surprised). These are really simple things, but I'm really happy about it all. Managed to do a few things as well today. I can't say that productivity was high but I did manage to do some things and helped a few people. Then il Gatto said I must return for a meeting with him and his pet. I know they're gonna celebrate my birthday despite of me telling him some days ago not to. I did try to get away from it but alas to no avail. So I came back. Then they gathered in the room, apparently waiting for me. I was still dragging my feet and apparently they ran out of patience and started to sing loudly. I was pretty embarrassed. They got me a cake. Ash who bought it and she bought a nice one, choco exotic. A cake that I was thinking of getting for myself. Apparently they weren't sure how old I am. I think she asked for 30 candles and they put 27! Ah, no yet my dears, I'm not that old! I think they were really nice for doing this to me. il Gatto wanted me to join them for dinner, but I don't want too. Somehow I feel the need to be alone and have a bit of me time with myself. I'm kinda enjoying myself watching an Indonesian movie on TV now.
So that was pretty much my birthday today. Nothing really special happened but I'm okay about it. Perhaps it helped me get through this day better. I thought I would get sad and depressed about today but I think it went well. I have to admit though, I'm never one who is excited about birthday. Somehow it's just a day that I feel that I have to get through. When I went home today, I had this crazy thought of how good this day will end if I can hear Ruben Onsu sing me Happy Birthday
Other notes about this 26th birthday. I got a snoopy bag from Dagi. I got the notice to pick it up on Tuesday and I realized that as much as I remembered that my birthday was coming, I was also kinda forgot about it. If you ask me what I got myself. Well, I didn't get myself anything but perhaps me passing CELI 2 can be counted as a present. Yeah, ho superato CELI! Sono molto contenta. When I read the mail on Wednesday, I was so darn happy! I was kinda in disbelief and couldn't stop saying "oh my God". Oh my God indeed. It's really is God's blessing. Thank you God. I was so happy and that happiness really brighten my days. It's been awhile since I feel so accomplished like this and it's been some weeks and days as well since I feel genuinely happy. For that, I really have God to thank.
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Saturday, March 08, 2008
Hello peeps. Just woke up about an hour ago and I suppose as soon as I woke up, restlessness and loneliness really attacked. Could perhaps have made it to NUS for the free movie screening but decided I was too tired. The secret recipe banana chocolate cake did help but now after reading a few things I got reminded of a few stuffs and got rather mellow. I realized that I don't have much energy literally. I don't know why. Slept at 12 plus last midnight, woke up and lazed in my bed until 7:30 something this morning and off I went to start my day. Morning engagement and then movie with Vivy. Reached my room at 5 plus and somehow I couldn't contain the sleepiness, hence I took a nap. Didn't sleep much but I did sleep awhile. I think I had quite an okay day, I just don't know why I'm so tired. Vivy was like up perhaps earlier than me, had her jogging, had her house stuff, had movie with me, then she went to Millenia Walk, then a karaoke session and I'm just amazed that she has the energy to do all that. There was a time when I tried to squeeze in as many activities on Saturday as I can, but I have to admit that these days I just say I'm tired for many things. Maybe I should be more active or distracted with stuff so that I wouldn't feel as lonely as I do now *sigh*Okay on life. Found out from mom that my cousin's uncle passed away. That is so sad really. He had 2 boys and they're not really adults and I can't imagine losing a dad at a young age. I can't imagine his wife also having to move on without a husband. What's more sad about it is that it's all so sudden. He didn't die because of a chronic disease. From what I heard he just had a headache after playing badminton, then he was admitted in the hospital and fell into a coma. In a span of a few days, he died. Hence why I said in my previous post that life is precious. I also told you guys to be thankful for everything that you have, especially parents. Since Astley passed away, somehow it does scare me when someone leave so suddenly like that. I don't like that. Another reason why I got sad just now was because I stumbled into a post in Jane's blog. A talk she had over meal with Astley in which Astley asked what's the most important thing in your life? Astley said that the most important thing was to be happy. Seriously, reading the whole paragraph there, I almost felt like crying over him again because it's really what Astley would say *breathe in* I think I kinda really worried him sometime, I worried him because as many people have pointed out, I do often look sad. I am a sad soul, I guess. Maybe I should really do everyone a favor by trying to appear cheery.
Moving on. I wasn't in a good form in today's morning engagement. Talked about a few stuff. The shooting in Outram Park for example. I hope I don't get into trouble writing this down. MS asked what our opinion about it. S said that she felt that the police should shoot the guy in the leg, instead of shooting the guy lethally. Personally for me, my first reaction was what happened? The news said the guy was behaving in a threatening manner, but what does that mean, it wasn't explained in detail. He was not a young guy and his weapon (if it was with him at that time) was a knife. So I just felt that not much explanation was given about how the man behaved to deserve to be shot to death. Of course I had difficulty expressing these thoughts in words *sigh* A friend of MS was actually there when it happened and he was behind the policeman. He said the policeman just shot the guy without warning, without saying freeze, stop, or something like that and the shooting was in a distance of 3 m away. This actually tallied to a story from one of the eye witness being interviewed on tv, he said they suddenly heard a shot and quickly hid behind a wall. So before that they didn't hear or perhaps saw anything suspicious. So MS asked us again what we thought of this. Hearing everyone said their opinion, I had to say something creative and luckily this brain could work. First and foremost actually I thought the policeman was panicking that he just shot the guy so that he wouldn't have to deal with him face to face on close proximity, then being the kind me I offered another explanation that perhaps it had to be done because there may not be much time 'till a train arrived and the guy went into the train. Whatever it is, somehow Singapore is getting to be quite happening, no? We also talked about the escaped terrorist, in which the peeps seemed to be sure he had fleed the country. Indonesia was the general agreement. I don't get how he could have done so. It would be difficult to do so if he's alone but if he's not alone then how come he could be that lucky. He managed to have his people helped him flee in an efficient time though his escape was perhaps an unexpected lucky break? Maybe as Ms. Kiera suspected, someone from the inside was involved. That would actually make more sense. Anyways, they're still looking for him. He could pass in front of me and I may not notice him.
Next. Movie today was Charlie Wilson's War, which I found to be not so bad but perhaps it's rather difficult to follow the conversation. The top actors were of course great. Kinda miss seeing Julia Roberts on screen. As a matter of fact, kinda miss Tom Hanks too. The story was based on a true story, amazingly. I found it really remarkable that people can really change the world. Should you watch it? Well, it's not as funny as I thought it would be, it actually really got down to business. As I said the conversation could be hard to follow, but if you could follow them, you could find some witty lines and the characters should be applauded for saying them in a very entertaining manner, especially Philip Seymour Hoffman. I think it's quite an interesting watch, but it's really not your typical box office movie despite of the big stars.
Let me leave you right now with perhaps the first love story I've written. Of course Maria helped me a lot with fixing everything. I would say it's half fiction because (I wonder if it's actually obvious) I'm writing it from the girl's point of view, namely me. I could be so wrong, so just take it as a fiction. I guess you are somewhat disappointed that you couldn't understand this, ya?
Questa è una storia su una ragazza e un ragazzo. All' inizio loro non parlavano spesso, si salutavano solamente. Un giorno hanno cominciato a parlare più. Lei era sorpresa perchè non pensava che lui e lei potessero parlare tanto perchè lui era molto diverso di lei. Lui sentiva la stessa cosa. Era interessante per lui scoprire questa ragazza. Per lui, lei era carina, intelligente, e gentile. Hanno cominciato a cenare spesso insieme. A lui piace molto il gelato e spesso prendevano il dolce insieme.
A lui cominciava a piacere sempre di più però lei non era sicura che lui avesse un sentimento speciale per lei. Lui non le diceva mai niente però ogni giorno lui la cercava. Lei si sentiva un pò strana perchè le diceva sempre tutto. Lei non capiva perchè lui avesse tanto fiducia con lei. Da parte sua, semplicemente lei era molto felice quando passavano il tempo insieme.
Un giorno lei ha deciso che aveva bisogno di dirgli il suo sentimento. Lui era sorpreso perchè lui non immaginava che avesse un sentimento speciale per lui. A lui piaceva però pensava che fosse meglio se rimanevano amici. Lei era un pò triste. Lei pensava che una volta avesse avuto un sentimento per lei ma che ora il sentimento fosse scomparso.
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Penso che loro si siano incontrati in un momento diverso. É triste che nessuno abbia detto niente. É probabile che lui abbia avuto un sentimento speciale prima, però non aveva detto mai niente. Poi lei si è resa conto del suo sentimento, però in quel momento lui non aveva lo stesso forte sentimento. Penso che sia triste.
:) eKa @ 8:10:00 PM • 0 comments
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Hello guys. Aguas de Marco is playing in my winamp now. The French version. The original one from Antonio Carlos Jobim and Elis Regina is coming up after this and how I love it. Okay many of you are like lost in what I am talking about, though I've written about this song some years ago, so just go here peeps. This being the month of March, I guess I should relish this song even more. Truly one of my favorite never-can-get-bored-no-matter-how-many-time-I-hear-it song.So there isn't any movie to talk about though there are a number that I want to watch. Read that Starfish watched Persepolis and I'm kinda envious about that. However timing and people are not in my side currently. I had quite a good day today despite of me being sick. Yes people, I'm finally stopped. I actually made it out of the house today but around 10 am, I called it quit. My runny nose didn't stop so I decided I was not in a good condition to go through the day. I went straight to the doc. She gave me the usual medication. By fate she asked me if I didn't sleep. I said I haven't been sleeping well for a long time and some people suggested asking sleeping pills from her. She said no and I agree with her. I think it would really stamp me as a nutcase if I do take sleeping pills and she said that once I started on that, I would never stop. So thank goodness that we are all logical about it. She didn't give me a day off for tomorrow. She said I would be fine. See, I've told you people, that I have a strict doctor. After talking to her, I kinda feel like I have my mom around. Today I just felt that the doctor was a bit motherly though there were many times when I think she's not too sympathetic. I guess because my own mother wouldn't be sympathetic at me either, she would actually scold me if I get sick
So I actually feel good today despite of the flu and the chest pain, which I am still having now (it's okay, it's rather mild). I got to sleep, thanks to the flu medicine. I love it when my body could shut down during my sleep. I woke up after an hour or so without feeling or remembering anything, like for that hour or so I didn't exist. Unfortunately this very rarely happens when I sleep. I guess my body really needed the rest. I've been feeling off for more than a week and I'm glad that today I'm finally able to stop. Life has been rather tight these days so I guess that's the reason why I kept going on. I guess somehow being sick couldn't fit in the schedule.
What have been happening? Some things happened but I kinda feel numb about it all. I didn't even write about Vinny leaving. He did. Though unlike the girls, some things are still unresolved for him. Being in the middle of the battle field, the first thought that came to my head was that I hope when my time comes to part ways, it will end in good terms. I don't even know who's right and who's wrong and it's tiring for me hearing agitation from both sides. Some people are guided by different things in their life, religion, beliefs, rock bands and such and so those guide you when you make your decision and your stand. I realize I am pretty much the Indonesian in looking at this situation, make that Chinese Indonesian if you want, as such I don't want confrontation. I just want it to be done and if it's me, I would just get everything done so that I can move on. Yeah, it's very difficult to be sincere, isn't it? You want to make a stand but sometime I wonder if the stand they want to make is a good one to choose. How about goodness? Again, I don't know who is right, who is wrong. Lois said everyone is wrong. She may actually be saying something wise.
Dear cousin's birthday was yesterday. So she is 26 and so I will too soon. If you have read the previous posts, I've written that I've embraced being 26 since the start of the year but that doesn't really stop the sadness that comes when I think of my looming birthday. Yes, it is inevitable but the officialism of it all is still hard to swallow. Is there a difference between being 25 and 26? Isn't age is just a number? Yeah for me there is. As usual, I feel like I'm running out time and as much as my life hasn't actually been a total failure, I feel like I've wasted some parts of my life *sigh* Anyways, dear cousin's family is having quite a bad time now. One of her uncles is hospitalized. For me that's another nudge from God that life is precious and the certainty of it is so unpredictable. I feel that's like another nudge for me to do that thing that I dream of doing (I'm scared, God). Anyway, my cousin said that they are praying for the best and I think they are praying for strength to face whatever it is God decides. It's kinda scary for me if I really think about it. It also makes me feel thankful that I have parents, though perhaps I don't have the perfect relationship with them. I think you should too, be thankful for everything that you have.
I gotta go now, it's getting late and my tomorrow is gonna be heavy. Let me leave you with a quote I read today from Henry Ford, "You can't build a reputation on what you are going to do". So true, very very true.
:) eKa @ 9:55:00 PM • 0 comments
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