Wednesday, October 28, 2020

Things Still Suck

As usual, I actually have nothing to share. Do you realize that we only have just over 2 months left in 2020? This was the last line in the last post that I wrote in December 2019, ... I guess we also have to wait and see how things reveal themselves next year. With 2 months to go, crazy things can still reveal itself. Maybe Trump wins another term? I think a nightmare is an overused word to describe his presidency. I really can't imagine another round of it. I often hear people saying they don't get why Americans could elect him as president. Well in the last election there were actually more Americans who said no to Trump, but well electoral college :( It's like the whole world get an education on what that is back then. The mystery to me is how there are people who are still voting for Trump this time around. I can only think that these people just don't want to admit mistakes, especially after having been ridiculed and vilified for their choice. I think they double down even though deep down inside they know this is not good. There's no logic to explain the reason.

It's hard to be positive when on top of the many things you hope for that are not happening, even worse dreadful things are actually happening to you. I'm not a positive person by nature I think and it's already hard for me on normal circumstances to not sink lower. Is this year harder? Well there are many times when I'm like, no, go away, don't think about all the bad thoughts that come floating. There's a lot of bad thoughts and if I succumb to them, I will just cry there on the spot and these thoughts they will just float whenever and wherever they like :( There's a lot of fear, a lot of I want to just stop and leave. I want to be able to go home and right now it's complicated :(

My negativity is not a fun topic, so let's just talk about the mundane things I do. I am currently reading Rules for Visiting by Jessica Francis Kane. I should have finished reading this not thick book, but the way my schedule is now is making me less disciplined in reading. I don't think I'll get to 5 books this year. I really like the book though. Then things that I watch currently, well I'm making my way through The Sopranos. I'm in season 5 now. It does have interesting characters and can be quite funny, but no I kinda don't have sympathy for the characters. They are bad people. As for the current things I am watching, well there's Fear the Walking Dead which I have to say I have grown to quite like. I kinda managed to bounce back after the death of Nick. Some character like John Dorie is very likable. Then there's The Amazing Race which I think stop getting aired in the local TV in Singapore because they feature gay contestants and it's too much work to cut off reference to this. Then of course I am really excited for This is Us. Randall's biological mom is alive?!?! How on earth is she not looking for her son?!??

:) eKa @ 10:12:00 PM •