Friday, November 11, 2005
This morning, I thought I was gonna be blogging about depressing stuffs. What a morning it had been. Saw something and I was just sad (envious + jealous, to be more precise). Simply put, in a state of crisis. I knew that was what I would feel when I saw it and yet I was still searching for it so that I could see it. So I turned to Ayu, being the only person around. She tried advice/scolding and I couldn't say I felt better but I fully understood her words and so I stopped being miserable so that I wouldn't waste her time. On and on, I could go telling you all the details of this stupid feeling that I have (I'm still feeling it, by the way). But......there was lunch. Not hoping. Seriously and honestly, I was not hoping for anything but...there he was. It was just one of those things that happen to me with him (if such could be said), my eyes would just suddenly look somewhere and there he would be (This must sound so romantic, isn't it? Let's just agree that it sounds silly). So I let this girl next to me know his existence but we weren't near so she couldn't see much. However she said the nicest thing when I told her the story. She said something like it's so fated the so-many times I saw him. I hope people will think so also, especially him. I'm not stalking! No, I am not. It's just, I see you, that's all. God, let him see me.
:) eKa @ 5:18:00 PM •
bluesky.
I don't take being here for granted, it might be the last one. It's really beyond my imagination that God has taken me to all these places and back - oh the journey we did together, thank You God
made a mistake today and I only have myself to be disappointed with :( I wasn't raised this way and somehow I become this :( thank God the merciful still gave me a good alternative
finally a little bit of sun and blue sky and it's most probably the only one I would get here - side note: feel quite sad about Pope Francis, such an inspiration to be humble and down to earth :(
adieu Paris, je ne sais pas s'il y a une prochaine fois - si non, je pense que je suis contente :)
knocked my tea all over the table, but a girl quickly came to help me clean up and even said sorry about my tea - it gives me hope about these kids
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from the poem 大阿蘇 (おおあそ) by 三好達治 (みよしたつじ):
もしも百年が
この一瞬の間にたったとしても
何の不思議もないだろう
that line is just ... it stucks with me
a good present - bought a cake and getting a slice of cake for free - I know the universe has love for me :)
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