Monday, October 11, 2004

About Weekend
Saturday (08/10/04) - Sunday (09/10/04)

My first free Saturday since a long-long time. Really free without having anything that I must do and it turned out to be such a boring day. I was so "garink" that I was feeling sad for myself. Managed to get up later than usual. Didn't do anything interesting and useful. Watched the Kerry and Bush debate on TV. By now people do know that Kerry is far more articulate than Bush. However you know what they say about people who can talk well, they can fool you I know that my knowledge about politic is very very little and I don't really know much about what's going on in the world, the whole true story. By the little knowledge that I have, I want to see Kerry as president because I don't think Bush is a good leader and he's just so ... so stupid? That's very harsh, maybe moronic? Or maybe he is very smart because he managed to become president in the first place. I hate his stubborn decision of invading Iraq. Reading the news about what Saddam did in Iraq, he does seem like a very mean person, but I don't like the idea just because you think that you should be the superhero of this world you should just go out there, ignore UN, and invade the small country. I know that there are other people out there sharing my sentiment. However my feeling is telling me that he may become president again. After watching Fahrenheit 911, I really do think that he can be elected again. When Florida was hit by storm again recently, I was thinking could it be karma that they were getting because of the fishy politic that Bush was having with his cousin. Alrighty, I don't know much, so don't listen what I say about all of this thing, okay Anyway, after the debate, I was basically switching channels on TV. Then Detective Conan was shown and I watched that. Miss watching it, really. After that I decided to go to Kinokuniya, so that I won't be so "garink". Browsed some photographic books. It's just my thing. I can't put it to words the feeling that I had going through the National Geographics books. Then I bought dinner which I ended up eating at 4 pm Hey, I didn't have lunch. Didn't stay long in Kinokuniya because I wanted to watch "One Tree Hill". Went online in the evening and ended up watching some of Indonesian Idols footage off the Net. They were actually good and Delon was really quite handsome It's surprising how big the production is compared to Singapore's. Indonesia who supposedly to be poorer than Singapore After that, I called home, and guess what my parent were doing. They were watching Indonesian Idol too and just when I thought the show has ended. It turned out now they were showing the Idols concerts all over Indonesia. I think Indonesian Idol has really been the family show now in Indonesia. How great it is to be able to be there and enjoy it with my family *sigH*

I LoVe Linkin Park
I really do love Linkin Park. After talking to mom, I watched the Live in Texas dvd. I'm in love with Mr.Hahn A friend told me that his wife (who is a teacher and expecting a baby now) loves linkin park too. At that time, I felt wow I'm normal I don't know why I should feel like that. I guess the people who I used to hang out with made me feel weird and think that it's improper to listen to band who (according to them) capitalize on screaming I don't know why I should feel like that or bother about it. I don't need anybody approval of anything. I shouldn't let anybody's opinion make me feel happy or sad. I should be the one who make myself happy. I should hell better not make myself sad. I should be able to count on myself to make myself happy. I should not conform to other people to feel normal. I guess I'm just tired of people
Anyway...I think I'm crazy for liking Mr.Hahn so much Come on, I'm not 14

Sunday was spent doing nothing basically. Took my usual nap. Ate instant noodle for dinner because I didn't feel like eating anything. Found a bug in the java programme that I did last week. So I had to fix it. Got an sms from my dear cousin Marlisa. I miss her. I wished her the best. She told me that Dewi's sister had delivered a baby boy yesterday. Dewi herself hasn't given me the news. Maybe she's busy. Anyway, I miss my cousin. I miss my mama too I wish all of them are okay, protected and blessed by God. I hope my cousin will get what she wants ... Oops sorry, it should be: she gets what she really should get. Because what we want and what we should get (according to God) maybe different. This bring me to this one last point I'm going to tell you. I don't know if I read or hear this somewhere but I have this saying: you can't lose what you don't have in the first place. If you don't lose anything why feel sad? I'm so tired right now, so I'm not gonna write more. I guess, often time we feel sad and disappointed about things that we thought could be ours and in the end are not becoming ours. The truth is, those things are never ours in the first place so why feel sad about not having them. You are not losing them because they are never yours. When it's meant to be it's meant to be. In my case, I should be more sincere and look back on the people who have helped me a whole lot without me giving anything to them in return.

It turns out my boring weekend managed to occupy this much space Take care people ...
written Sunday (09/10/04) night

Added: Monday, October 11, 2004
My dear God ... This morning someone gave me a 512MB thumb drive!!! This friend was giving me this as a token of appreciation because I helped him with the java project. Am I being "muna" (= hypocrite) for being happy with this present? I mean, I told him that I didn't want anything in return, that he shouldn't get me anything but in the end he (stupidly) did buy me something. I must admit that initially the promised reward was what made me want to "help" him but after the process, I realized more and more of how many times people had helped me when I was in NUS, people like Yuanto, JTG, and Teddy to name a few, without whom I wouldn't be graduating and yet I have never given them anything. Perhaps I did buy them chocolate, but only that. This thumb drive is truly the most expensive thing a person outside my family has given me (Well I don't know how much the ring that Dewi's mom once gave me worth). Anyway, apart from thanking this guy, I guess I also must thank God. Thank you God ... You always give me a lot of things and no thank you will ever be enough to express my gratitude.

:) eKa @ 2:37:00 PM •